THE NEGATIVE REACTION

LOYALITY SUCKS

I have come to find out that loyality doesn't really shit anymore. Even the people I feel I am close with have done some pretty shitty things to me. I guess we are living in a world where people only care for themselves anymore. This is pretty cleat in the sports industry. Everybody looking for the next big thing to get them to the superbowl, NBA Championship, Stanley Cup, etc. coaches get fired after winning seasons, players get traded or put on waivers. Oh well - I guess my attitude has changed over the past few years. It's not that I don't care about people, it's just that I look for my common interests most of the time.

On a brighter note, at least I'm going to go skateboarding this week. I may have to sacrifice my hockey Friday night - but I'm not sure yet. I've only had my board about a week and nothing has really happened yet. B is sick and we were going to move my TV and stuff back to our house - but that plan got nixed cuz B got my sinus infection. It's cool because I can tell pretty easily when she's not in a good mood. It makes life sooooooooooo much easier. I figured Iw as going to go skate tonight from 9-11, but forgot my checkbook at home - FUCK!

Things have been really slow lately. I'm going to put an effort into getting a buisness plan started for my FREE SKATE company. I'm meeting a rep from GE Plastics tomorrow around 3pm. I'm really excited to tell this guy what I want to do. I think it's a killer idea. I guess only time will tell.

I miss Cody a lot already. It's hard to have my son around so much and then he leaves and *poof* nothing. no laughter, no yelling and shouting to fill up our house. It saddens me to think that he'll be moving around every few years. Never to really settle down anywhere. I hope when he is old enough that he'll move back and leave Karis and come live with me full time.

So B and I have gone to church once since we've seen her pastor. My spirtuality is getting weak and I KNOw I need to do more praying and relaxation stuff. Maybe tonight I'll put aside some time to that - now that our room is almost finished.

So that's all I got right now. Hopefully I'll get some more deep thoughts laters. . .


TOAST