A FEW LONG DAYS
Christmas came and went in a flash. My son is finally here, The Vikings lost (no big surprise there), Reggie White died too young at 43, and now the week ahead looks promising.
Sent out a few more resumes to a few companies. Hopefully something will break soon. I have my 2k bonus coming and I have decided to go back to work on the my wireless billing idea. I just have to pick a system that will work so I can do this on my own and still make enough to live on.
Oh yeah - Danny Way was picked Skater of the Year again. No big surprise there. He deserved it, no doubt.
That's about it. All is good in my world. Just in a holding pattern for some things. Wait and see for now I guess. . . . .
Oh yeah, picture of the day: the SOTY himself - DANNY WAY
and what would Christmas be without some sexy elves?
more laters. . .
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TOO LONG BETWEEN POSTS. . .
Last post: 11/2/04. With the upcoming new year, and all that has happened over the past month, I guess some catching up is in order - huh?
So. . . Bush won the election, The Liberals went mad, Hockey is STILL OOC (out of commission), and the Vikings are about to take the gaspipe and lose the NFC central to the Packers.
Hockey for me, has gone well, Christmas is fast approaching, Thanksgiving was wonderful, my son visiting went all too fast, and skateboarding took a backseat to soccer starting again. I did two interviews, one went great (Nextel) the other (Verizon) was a an unmitigated disaster. I didn't get either, but continue to send out resume's and the hunt continues. Day after day I WANT OUT of this shitty industry that is Wireless.
Oh yeah, had our Christmas party for ERIKS (www.eriksbikeshop.com) which was mildly entertaining. Since the ski area where the party was had shut down due to high winds, we were chalet ridden. So lots of trivia, free giveaways and prizes for salesperson of the year, most menchanic hours, most Cannondale sales, yyyyyyyyyaaaaaaaawwwwwwwwnnnnnn. I got a free t-shirt and some gloves. Lame. Oh well, better luck next year I guess.
So what else? My soccer team finally came to its senses and realized we are no longer 25 and need to find a good league that suits our "tweener, close to by not completely over 30 team" skill.
Hrrrrrrrrrrummmmmmmppppppppphhhhh. I have an AWESOME plot for a book. Dunno if I'm ever going to get around to it - but hey WTF? Right?
Revelations continue to come to me about the mother of my son. I know, old topic, big fucking deal - get over it. I have an entirely new observation which just adds to my frustration. In the end, I still believe she tried to trapped me (unsuccessful) and got preganat on purpose. Even worse? Since my son has been born, Karis has attempted to prevent me from trying to raise my own son. She has always believed any time my son spent time with me, it was bad for him because we had divergent views on parenting. How big do your balls have to be to believe something like that? Crazy, just crazy. To me, it seemed more like this was some master plan she had. Get pregnant, then I would marry her and we live happily ever after. She wanted to have a baby and she got that. Too bad I was about to allow her to manipulate me to get what she wanted. So the next step is try and cut me out of my son's life and minimize my involvement. After every turn she's tried to limit my involvement with my son. She still thinks it's best to have onluy parent raising our son. So sad, yet sooooooooo true.
Oh well, here's the pic errrrrrrrrr video of the day - in case you think I've forgotten!
Here's the video. From Feb of 2003 - still funny.
http://www.hardflip.com/movies/blitz2.mov
Here's the words that go with the Vid - if you're interested in that sort of thing.
http://www.hardflip.com/blitzkreig.asp
I'll try and update a little bit sooner from now on - ok?
LATERS
THE FATE OF A NATION IN THE BALANCE
Okay, I know, you don't have to tell me. It's been a long, long, long time since I've actually had the incentive to actually blog again. So here I am, on the eve of the election of our lifetime, so I feel it necessary to to pipe in, and give you MY choice and some other happenings going on in my sad sad world.
So the topics are as follows. . . .the election, the Red Sox, and the hockey lock-out.
Okay, I'm going to give you who I voted first followed by my reasons. So are you ready???
My all important vote goes to
*drum roll pleeeeeaaaaaaseeeeeeeee*
So my all important vote goes to "W". I have many, many reasons. I started to gravitate towards Bush a few months back. What really put me over the top was seeing not only the national media, but even my local media completely trashing Bush. All of the unbalanced reporting, totally biased opinons and giving John Kerry a free ride on every topic did it to me, I'm soooooooooooooooooo disgusted by the coverage of the election in the last few months, I will probably NEVER watch CBS again, read the New York Times, and I have all but boycotted every other biased news outlet. So thanks liberal media for making a true NEO-CON!!!!
So here are the issues I voted on. . .
THE ECONOMY
Kerry tried and tried and tried to hammer at Bush for his failings on the economy. If you actually consider everything, it's a lot better than Kerry would lead people to believe. 6 months before Bush comes into office, the internet bubble bursts, and we end up with a recession. Add in a HUGE does of terrorism with the 9/11 attacks, and other dose of weather castrophes in Florida. Then consider the economy is still recovering and still growing and doing just fine. Yet if Kerry is elected, he wants to raise taxes and kill the economy. Simple. Why would I want to vote for someone who is going to increase my taxes and take even more money out of my pocket?
FOREIGN POLICY
This was by far the biggest reason I voted for Bush. The clincher was a report that said Kerry took a poll after seeing the Bin Laden video. What a fucking moron. This just shows me how spineless Kerry really is. He has since the beginning of the war flip-flopped like a fish at every turn. So then in the debates he says we need a "global test" before we go to war. Ummmmmmmm sure, you mena like we did in 1991 during the first Gulf War? Oh yeah, Kerry voted against that too. This guy doesn't have the balls to go after terrorists. He dosen't have the capabilities to be resolute in ending this war. The proof? Bin Laden taking the democartic talking points in his video. To me, this proves Bush is kicking his ASSSSSSSSS. He's on the run, he lives in caves, and the majority of his organization is in ruins. He practically endorsed KErry and figured Kerry would let up on the boot we have on this guys throat. Again, too many different directiosn for me. Kerry is a pussy when it comes to dealing with these animals abroad. Bush stood up and said, "We're coming to get you. We're going to dismantle your organization. You started this, now we're going to END it." He wasn't about to take any more shit and has proven his worth to me.
PARTIAL BIRTH ABORTION
Unfortunately on this one there is no discussion possible. When you have amother at fullt erm and the baby is aborted, as a Catholic, I cannot condone this type of barbaric activity. Kerry voted time and again NOT to ban this. When I started arguing with some co-workers about this, they instantly jumped on me and yelled, "What about the safety of the mother? What happens then?'" Well, do you how many times that has happened? NONE, ZERO, ZILCH. A c-section can be done to save both, and Bush stands to protect the mother if inded her life is in danger.
So there you have it. My major reasons why I voted for Bush and why I'm a TOTAL conservative now. So all I have to say is that liberlaism is about to be extinguished and this is their last stand. So here is my last comment to liberals and demoRATS. . .
FUCK OFF!!!!!!
okay, so now that I have that all out of my system. . on to better news.
The Boston red Sox finally won the World Series. They rolled the Red Birds and won for the first time in 86 years. This was a pretty big thing I'm sure that will be overshadowed by the elections coming up. The ability to reverse this "curse" is a pretty big thing. If you're not familiar with the curse, click here.
Otherwise, even if you're not a baseball fan, this should put a smile on your face. ONE out away from elimination by the Yankees, they battled back from 3 games down (never done in the history of baseball!!) to beat the evil empire and then made quick work of the Cardinals.
So here's a few of my favorite pics from all of this. . .
I'll tell you this much too. I, for the past several years have HATED Pedro Martinez. Whatever the reasons were, I quickly forgot them as their incredible run started to gain momentum. I can now say I'm very proud of the entire team and congratulate them on the incredible display of emotion, determination and sheer gut that got them through. If ANY team deserves this, it's them. It took a lot of grit and forgetting wha tthe naysayers were spewing. If this doesn't put a smile on your face, then you need to check your pulse and make sure you're still alive.
Alright, now onto more heartache for me personally. I'm a HUGE hockey fan. I am your typical Minnesotah guy. Grew up playing hockey. Played through high school and dabbled a bit (soccer was my second love. I played soccer instead of hockey in college) during my years in college. This season brought a lot of hope to my team the Wild. However, when the owners locked the players out and then the players basically told them to go pound sand, it left a really bad taste in my mouth. So what's at stake? Players salaries. The owners want a cap, the players don't. So where's the compromise. Um yeah, THERE IS NONE. But don't take my word for it, read all about it here.
Anyways this is my picture for the day. It just shows how I feel about a lockout:
anyways,
LATE
p.s. I FINALLY got around to editing this 11/12/04. No worries, W. was re-relected EASILY and the Dems are now on the run!!! Hahahahahahahaha
ANOTHER MONTH GOES BY. .
I'm surprised it's been over a month since I've felt compelled to write in my blog. I'm sure it's a few things, but overall, everything has somewhat panned out for me in the last few weeks. Right up until I went to go see "Friday Night Lights" . In a nutshell, it's about Odessa Texas which has a fanatical (I mean that as literal as you can imagine) high school football tradition. the movie is about one season back in 1988. It doesn't give a lot of what was going on off the field, and instead puts a square focus on the season, the players and the coach all trying to live up to the hype and tradition that is West Texas football.
The reason the movie struck a chord with me is the underlying theme of living in the moment, and not allowing it to slip by. Having one shot to stake your claim, one shot to feel and bask in the glory. Most of us never fully sense when "that time" really is. Suddenly, once you realize it, it's gone. The theme hit me hard in the realization that here was a bunch of kids who may or may not understood this WAS their time. At the conclusion of the film, it gave us another glimpse of this cold reality when it informed us of what ever happened to the players on that fateful team and the coach. Only one played Division 1 football, and only for one season. The rest went to Divison 3 schools or junior college. The only glowing moment is when the only Hispanic player was accepted into Harvard and is now practicing law in Odessa.
Getting back to why I identified with the film so much is that I had a very similar experience, but not in high school. I played soccer and hockey up until my junior year in high school. For the most part, I was pretty bored in high school and thought the people I went to school with were stuck up pricks and bitches. I got into snowboarding and skateboarding and gave up on athletics, much to the dismay and anger of my parents. It wasn't until I was in college I was re-introduced to soccer. It soon became my love again, and I actually played at my peak during these years.
I was lucky. My friends and I built a team that was virtually unstoppable and ran the table for nearly four seasons. It was pure magic. It wasn't until late in the fourth season did I realize what we had and by this time, my college career was ending, people were moving away and my life changed dramatically. Now as I sit here and type this I felt like I really hadn't accomplished anything in my life. I just felt like I really missed enjoying a great time in my life. It happened all so fast. 7 years just FLEW by. 5 years of undergraduate work followed by almost two years of grad school took its toll. Don't get me wrong, these were the best years of my life. I feel like I didn't fully grasp the moment we were in. I took it all for granted, I just figured it would last forever. I think that was the point of the movie. It's not enouogh to just realize the moment when it comes. A person has to close his hands over it and enjoy it for what it is. A moment in time you cannot freeze, you cannot stop. It will begin and conclude. Will another time like this ever come again? It's too hard to tell. But savoring it makes all the more worthwhile and the memories that more vivid.
That's why I get so depressed about movies like this. I should remember more - but I can't. I remember my best goals, I remember meeting some prety cool people. I remember winning some close, tight strung games. I remember the trials of getting to nationals. I remember the big stuff, but the small stuff, the stuff I should have savored, it all fell to the wayside. Just clutter in my memories. There was about a year and a half were I was a total zombie. Just going through the motions, trying to survive on my own after a diasterous relationship. a lot of that time in my life was completely lost. So to try and reference some of those good times in the midst of that choas just doesn't work. I have no starting point, it just fades out. So sad to think about, but true nonetheless.
So I wait a month, then drop a depressing as hell post. I'll try do better next time.
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IT IS WHAT IT IS. . .
Another day, another fruitful journey into the mind of a mad wonderer.
I usually like to go a few more days in between posts, but when my brain is consumed by certain thoughts, I must, inadvertently pull the plug and just let everything run out of my mind.
It's Wednesday afternoon, the trance music is in full effect and yesterday was a very interesting day to say the least. If nothing else, it confirmed my idea to start my own company (Logo below) so I can get paid for telling people how to use their cellphone. This way, I can at least start to change the perverbial paradigm that at times is so overwhelming to people. So who's the culprit?
THE FREE PHONE (Lesson 1)
Ever since the cellphone industry took the value out of their product, the entire world of the wireless cellphone consumer has been amiss. This explains why. when they bust or loose their phone, they're all under the impression they can get another phone for virtually nothing, or worse, for free?!
It's as if they ACTUALLY believe the phone they bought for $39.99 ACTUALLY costs 40 bucks. Okay, look at the picture below and tell me if you think the phone pictured ACTUALLY costs $39.99.
ummmmmmmmmm, yeah - right. Think about all of the technology it takes to put a phone like this together, the features, the color LCD, etc, etc. Then think somebody had to assemble this phone. It's not like putting plastic toys together - it takes some amount of skillful labor. then think about how the phone got shipped from Korea to the US. Then think about all the labor it takes to get this phone to a distributor, then to the dealer and finally to you the consumer. NOW TELL ME HOW THE FUCK SOMEBODY DOES ALL THAT FOR UNDER $40!!!!!!
So then, I get all these A-holes in my office complaining nobody told them about insurance and how much thier phone ACTUALLY costs. Which starts with another long tirade by me, telling them their phone actually costs $249.99 and we "buy down" the cost off the phone by offsetting the cost with the commission paid by the carrier on a new activation. This in turn is followed by me railing on the very industry I work in. I see this as a total failure by the carriers to give us (the salespeople) ZERO incentive to sign up and keep loyal customers. Ohhhhh no! How fucked up does this seem?
Lemme see if I have this right. . let's take this guy, who you have no idea how good his credit is, or if he will even stay on long enough for the carrier to re-coup it's cost. Let's give this individual the WORLD and fuck the customer who's been with the carrier for 10 years, has rock solid credit and has never missed a payment. It's no wonder the entire wireless world relies solely on ARPU (average revenue per user) and CHURN statisitics (the amount of customers jumping from one carrier to the next). When your entire business model is based on how many customers you loose each month, you would think they would change something - but they don't, and they won't.
Like the post says - it is what it is.
Which leads me to my picture of the day. I've always had a love affair with black and photography. It just strips everything down to it's bare essentials. To me, it reveals the raw emotions. Since I have a little dark place in my heart, it always taps right into those feelings. Nothing could do more than todays picture. Alas, the trance music stopped and the big band, Frank Sinatra tunes are quietly playing in the background. Dig this kiddies. . .
This is Bill Bradley on a cold Iowa day in 2000. Shortly before he would abandon his presidential race and succomb to Al Bore errrrrrrrr Al Gore.
Need I say more?
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WHERE ARE WE GOING??
I have for the last month or two swayed away from posting stuff politically related. The last week we've seen terrosits murder 12 sudanese citizens, two russian planes dwoned intentionally, and finally. . a russian primary school overrun and in the seige, possibly hundreds of school children lost their lives.
This is the pic that really got me. . .
I have a son that is 9 and this made my heart ache. I can't imagine taking my son to school and having this happen. It's just like seeing the Nick Berg decapitation. I just go totally numb. Emotionally, physically. I don't know what this world is coming to.
There is soo much hate in my heart for these Islamo Fascists that have zero honor, zero morality, zero intelligence and think this is somehow furthering their cause. I have become so anti-muslim it's not even funny. Instead of crying out against this sick shit, the ENTIRE muslim world sits on its hands while this goes on. This is TOTALLY unacceptable to me. Until I see something positive coming out of the nation of islam, I will continue to distance myself from people who are muslims, and I will refuse service to those who are muslim. This is my little protest to those who support this unholy religion and offer hate, bombs and murder in the face of peace, faith and freedom.
I'm sitting in my office at work, and I want to sob for these people, but cannot. I hear the radio in the background but my mind is totally silent. I am, paralyzed. I don't know how to wrap my head around this.
I'm just glad I have this outlet to document how this affects me.
This is all I have.
GODSPEED to those survivors, you are in my prayers. Please, please, please keep the faith.
Prayer for Peace
Lord, make me an instrument of Thy peace.
Where there is hatred, let me sow love;
Where there is injury, pardon;
Where there is doubt, faith;
Where there is despair, hope;
Where there is darkness, light;
Where there is sadness, joy.
Divine Master, grant that I may not so much seek to be consoled, as to console; to be understood, as to understand; to be loved, as to love; for it is in giving that we receive, it is in pardoning that we are pardoned, it is in dying that we are born to eternal life.
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BEING OBJECTIVE ISNT EVERYTHING. . .
So, for the past few days I've been having a rather heated debate regarding the politics of the upcoming election. This "debate" as you might call it, involves people on the website which deals in Chemtrails.
I had always thought people on a website that deals in conspiracy theories would at least have an open mind and objectively look at things. I mean, they're trying to prove something based on little, if any evidence. To do so, one most suspend quite a bit of the normal scientific method to come ot the conclusion this "conspiracy" is true. I posted a while back my faith in this particular conspiracy is growing thin (see 05/25/04 for my thoughts). So I found it particluarly alarming when the posts starting coming fast and furious. The topic of the thread had to do with the documentary regarding how FoxNews is soooooooo right leaning. WOW! Now there's a shocker. So I posted a few thoughts regarding the fact that there seems to be an overwhelming bias actually in the opposite direction. I threw up a ton of statistics and suddenly found myself the target of the these people. The most profound thing I started to find was the original poster "KNOW-THIS" never put any of his OWN thoughts on any of his posts, it was simply him posting articles from different websites. How nice to have a mouthpiece for your thoughts. How nice to be able to actually form an argument and back it up with facts and your own opinon and conclusions. Not somebody else's ideas you simply use for the benefit of your own argument.
I then thought to myself, well, politics is kinda a heavy issue right now and people are pretty adament about which canidate they're going to vote for and which one they really don't like. So maybe, it's just me, starting an argument I can't win, or don't care to win. I guess these people never took any classes on philosophy and the art of arguing effectively.
I just posted this response (you'll have to scan ot the bottom of the page) on the thread, so it will be interesting to see what people post after it. I wonder if I will be accepted back into the fold, or merely ousted from the baord. Eitherway, it doesn't make much difference. If you can't objectively look at something, then I feel really sorry for you. The ability to think critically is lost on people today. We are far more comfortable leaning on other people's viewpoints, rather than critically analyzing what's being said and the purpose behind it. This is why I love conservative talk shows. They will break down what's being said and attempt to find out what the real purpose of what's being said. Politicians are such slimy, slippery creatures. I think Dennis Prager does this the best (thus, the link on my page) and also interjects a great deal of morale viewpoints to accentuate his position.
So what have I learned? Well, that politics is a messy game, there are some REALLY big kooks and nutzos out there, and basically people love to think as a group instead of as individuals. Nothing very revelatory there, just some conclusions I've drawn from this experience.
Oh well. . . .now for something MUCH BETTER. . . . .
This is Danny Way. This is Danny Way defining what is, "Imgaine the possibilities?"
Here's a link to Danny's home page with some KILLER videos of the MEGA RAMP!!
What WERE you expecting?? Some thong clad hottie? Well, here's one of those too!
more some other day. . . my brain is melting right now. . .
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A LONG STRANGE TRIP
So this weekend was rather interesting. I took a roadie up north to visit my best friend who lives in Fargo. West Fargo to be exact, but a nice move for him. Him and his wife got a really, really nice house in a new development. I was really impressed. The house was pretty cool.
So I didn't know what to expect, seeing as how NDSU used to be my stomping grounds. School was out for the summer, so traffic around campus was pretty slow. John Edwards was due to speak, so there was a lot of commotion for that. We apparently got there several hours before he was set to arrive, so it was still pretty easy to move around campus.
The problem I've been having is how to finally put my demons to rest. College was such a great time in the beginning, but it all collapsed in the end. The way I ended my college career was not really how I had envisoned it. These are the demons I wrestle with. I have dreams of being in school, being older and not recognizing anything anymore. What I realized is that Fargo is changing, just like in my dreams. So much of Fargo I didn't recognize. So much of the Fargo I knew is coming down, reduced to rubble. New bars, new buildings on campus, new downtown renovations that have transformed the city. It was pretty weird to see how everything has changed. I was remebering all the good times I had while I was in college. Now, I was the outsider, the old guy trying to relive my past. How sad is that? Trying to explain to my friends, "Yeah, this is the last house I lived in. Gawd I remember the time when. . . " After doing this a few times, it just sounded old and stupid. Like I was this old guy looking at the house remembering my glory days. Fuck! I do NOT want to be that guy!
So I have concluded my feelings are disjointed and incomplete. I never had the last page of my book written. It just ended without notice. So now I am forced to take those memories and walk away from the best time of my life. My reconcilliation was complete on the way home. There just were no more feelings left for me to share. I felt the excitement coming into Fargo like I did so many times. You see, the highway leading into Fargo is a long, straightaway that runs for probably 4 or 5 miles. So most of the time, I felt as though the city had opened her arms to welcome me back. I was the king, returning to my city, my friends, and the life I loved. I was always on the inside. Someone always welcomned me back, someone was always there to go and drink with me. Someone always wanted to know I was back in town. It was great, and it felt right.. Now I was a different person, it was a different time. The feelings I had coming back to Fargo, were the same I had when we finally got back to Minneapolis. The tinge of knowing I probably would not be back to Fargo for a while was hard, but it was good to back in Minneapolis.
So did I exercise my past - or merely concrete the memories I had? Did I want to remember my time there as positive and finally let go of what I've been chasing for so many years? I want to be the guy who remembers and is thankful for the time I spent in Fargo. I don't want to kkep chasing the memories of who I was. My time if Fargo was probably the best time of my life. I went there a suburban boy and brought back the riches of learning how to live my life. I had it all, and in an instant, it all faded away. My friends, my family, my life. I lived the brightest and the darkest days of my life, all within 7 years. It was funny, on the way home, I tried to recall the names of the ghosts of my past. Most, I came up blank, some fettered in the back of my mind. Only able to grasp at first names, matching some with faces, others were a total blank.
My only regret is that it all ended too soon. My life is here, in Minneapolis now. Those days have long since faded. I have so many memories I took with me, so many I left behind. So now, the next chapter of my life has started, and the life I knew in Fargo I now must let go of.
Maybe next time I come into town, I will feel more like a stranger, than a ghost coming back to see the place I once inhabitited.
The ghosts of NDSU? Sounds like a cool book. . . .
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WHAT A DIFFERENCE A YEAR CAN MAKE
I had no idea that tomorrow will be my one year anniversary in the blogossphere. A LOT has happened in the past year. The year has really flown by. From my first post, which was basically about nothing, to learning how to post pictures, hyperlink text and the like, it's been an all around fruitful experience.
What have I learned from my first year in the blogosphere? I've always felt that writing was a good outlet for me. At least to simply jot down how I was feeling at a particular time. So in this regard, blogging certainly has helped me. It's also helped take some really disjointed thoughts and put them into a cohesive stream of conscious. I think CONSTANTLY about things I feel I know too little about. I CONSTANTLY drive to achieve goals and learn new things. So blogging has helped focus some of my random energy into something more useful than just passing thoughts. I think if you look through some of my posts, you'll see that.
So I haven't really opened this kinda private forum for discussion. This has been more of a journal for me, the ability to look back and see what was going in the world and my reaction to it. A way for me to keep track of this crazy life. They say it goes by all too fast, which is oh so true.
My blog is already public, so now I'm going to take the next step and allow people to respond to my blog and see what happens. So who else is out there that would want to read my mindless dribble? That's what I intend to find out!
So my topic for today is not politics, not conspiracy thoeries, but all about people who piss me off and how I deal with them.
PEOPLE WHO DONT KNOW HOW TO DRIVE!!
Yes, faster traffic to the left, slower traffic to right. How easier would life be if everybody followed these directions? My only problem is people who drive around 50-55 IN THE LEFT LANE!!! My other major issue is reckless drivers. You've seen them, using off ramps as passing lanes, riding people's ASSSES when the person in the left lane is going 70mph plus. So here's my solution to this doughheads.
First, don't jam on the brakes. That only makes the person more pissed off. Just take your foot off the gas, and run down to about 45-50 mph. The only way this trick works is if you have someone in the right lane running near the same speed. Chances are usually pretty good a car is going that speed, otherwise the yahoo would have simply zipped around you.
So now he's on your ass, maybe close enough where you can't see his headlights. So I slow down to the speed of the car in the right lane and "box" him in. Now, he can't get around you, and he can't go any faster than the car in the right lane. Most of the time, this works to perfection and after a few seconds, the person will usually back off. when this happens I'll take this cue and switch lanes to let him to get by. If the guy doesn't let up, I keep doing it until he gets pissed and turns on his bright lights, tries to pass on the shoulder, or do something even more stupid. In any case, I usually call the State Patrol and report his "erradict and dangerous driving", or say something like, "He looked like he was drunk when he passed me, and was swerving all over the road and already forced one person to the shoulder." Under most circumstances, it gets the cops there pretty fast and he gets pulled over rather quickly.
So what's it like to be an a-hole driver? I don't know, but if you're going to be an a-hole, then you get treated like an a-hole. Pure and simple.
oh well. . .enough rambling, here's my picture for the day.
This is Minnesota in Fall, my favorite season. I'm going to write a lengthy piece about why I love Fall so much and just don't think I could live anywhere else. Minnesota, four full seasons. Ahhh, what a beautiful place I live. So lucky.
Anyways, think on it. . . . . .
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ANOTHER DAY IN THE BLOGSPHERE
Another day, another deleted post. Yesterday, I spent like a fricking hour posting all this stuff, only to hit the preview button and *poof* it's gone. I was so pissed, I almost gave up. But alas, another day, another tale of weird stuff.
So Lance won his sixth tour, Filip got busted HUGE. Thanks for the memories guys. Lance, I don't know if he'll be back. If nothing else, it seems like people are trying to push him out of the sport, which is really shitty. So he may just come back to shut people up and hang a seven or eight tours on them. Or even better? Maybe he'll go after Merckx record of 5 Tours and 5 Giro De Italia wins. Who knows, but Eddy will always be the greatest in my mind until that day. To see Lance win 5 is amazing, ever seen history being made? I still think it's pretty cool what Lance has benn able to do.
Yes, Eddy, you are still the greatest - but you got some competition now bro.
So to re-cap briefly, my son last Sunday and I was pretty depressed. He had a hard time Friday night, not wanting to go home. Since then, I talked with him on the phone and he sounded like he was back in good spirits again.
Probably the best thing was taking my son to the skatepark. I was really against it, and had my reservations about how he would do. His good friends were there, which helped quite a bit. So in the end, I relented and I was relieved to see him to do well. I was really proud of him and he kept talking about how fun it was even when I just talked with him on the phone. I told his mother she had to buy him a new helmet, and sure enough I got a voice mail from him that he got his new helmet and was already going to the skatepark by his house; which was nice to hear.
Okay, so onto more important things. My goal of getting my bike built has finally materialized, and I'm in the process of getting a mechanic at our shop to build it for me. Of course I can do the easy stuff, but the disc brakes, wheels, deraileurs and the like are going to prove to be too tough for me. So I'll have somebody do it right the first time. So I changed direction on my crankset. Originally I wanted the Race Face Deus. On further review, I ended up going with the Truvativ Stylo Team set.
Here's what they'll look like:
how beautiful.. . . . . . I can barely wait. . .
At least I've found another great show I like. Metal Mania on VH1 classics is AWESOME. Lots of 80's metal. the harispray, the melodic ballads, the spandex.
So a few nights ago, there are a series of videos, most of the bands I never heard of, but remember the songs. I suddenly find myself STARING at the screen. I came to the stern realization that the 80's were ten years of pure androgyny. What a revelation! So now I'm doing some research on what exactly lead to this crazy stuff, and the funny part? Pure widespread acceptence.
Oh yeah here's some more good news. John Kerry is about to go down in flames HARDCORE. These guys that served with him in Vietnam wrote a book that just hazes him. Here's a link to the their website. Hard to argue Kerry's own words, reports, and cross referencing with archived reports, and also eye witness accounts from the guys who served with him..
Sorry John. . . .
That's all I got for right now. . . . more on Filip and EPO laters brah!
My pic of the day:
GAWD I CANT WAIT TO GET BACK ON MY NEW BIKE!!!!
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VOICES THAT HOLD YOUR MEMORIES. . .
So I'm listening to Loreena McKeenitt's "The Mask & the Mirror". It just happens to be playing on the internet while I sit in my windowless office. My last post about Deanna brought back some memories. I saw I failed to tell you the fateful night our souls were bound, this very cd was playing.
Have you ever had a moment and music absolutely seared into your brain? That night, those emotions, this music. It will never leave me. D has told me she can't listen to it anymore, it's too emotional for her. I've known the same.
THIS CURSE
what have we ever known?
miles and years that have separated us,
one night to say goodbye,
as the music played,
we could never know,
this tangled web of life,
where we would end up,
our hearts so close,
our souls so far away,
our movements so dilberate,
our soft breathe,
only our emotions moved,
so quiet,
now we see the dawn approaching,
of what could never be,
these pictures still play out,
forever in my mind,
still so vivid,
still so clear,
what will it take to untagle this love?
I will forver see your face,
and I will call out to you in the darkness,
but will you come for me?
will it always be this way?
TWO DAYS BLOGGED. . .
WOW! Two days in a row, I must be doing something right, or am just too lazy to go back to working on my Service Center business plan. I think it's the latter, but something more mysterious hit me a few days back. I thought it would clear my mind (like it always does) but somehow has stayed in the front of my brain. So let's start at the beginning.
First question - Have you ever had a woman you wanted to be with (not have sex) so bad, but somewhere deep down, you knew it would never work? Allow me to introduce you to Deanna.
My college days (approx 1990-1997 thats 5 years of undergrad, and almost 2 years of post-grad work) were filled with long drinking nights, chasing skirts and lots and lots of fun. During this time, I met this tall, thin, short, dark haired marvel. Peircing blue eyes and a mind like a trap. I instantly smitten. The gods, however did not look upon me very kindly though. The one thing we did have in common was an array of girlfriends/boyfriends. It just seemed like we were always dating other people. We talked briefly and she dated one of my housemates for a while. At this time, my current girlfriend got pregnant with my son. A lot of shit went down in those last few years, and we basically lost touch with each other.
After my first move to Minneapolis, I came up for a weekend. It would be the night that changed everything. We all went out and got REALLY REALLY wasted. I was having a ball and not really caring too much agbout my behavior. We were at the bar and decided to do some tequila shots. I ended up sucking the lime out of her roomates mouth, and then asked me why I didn't get her lime. So I got her's too. But our kiss was crazy passionate. When we finished, we looked into each other's eyes and knew something was going on. Our flirting went on all night long. By the end of the night, I ended up in her room and we started talking in the dark and listening to Loreena Mckinnit.
It was perhaps of the most interesting nights I ever had. We talked at length about a lot stuff we were interested in. After more booze and some heavy petting, we had sex for like two hours. It was insane. then we crashed in each other's arms and then had sex again in the morning. From that day on, I was cursed. I went back to Minneapolis with a profound sense of finding my soulmate. When we were around each other it was literally electric. So much emotion, it was weird. I would be at work and I could "feel" her pain. It was crazy. I would call her out of the blue and simply ask her what was wrong. She told me several times I was the only guy that could peg her when she was depressed. It was like being connected with someone on a TOTALLY different level. I second time I came up, she was dating some guy and my car borke down on the way up to Fargo. Her and her roommate came and got me. Three hours to get me, and three hours back ot Fargo. We curled up on her bed and she gave me a long backrub. Of course, in the dark and again, one thing lead to another. In the morning, her boyfriend showed up and I made a hasty retreat to the living room couch. It was pretty funny. Again, another night of electricity and amazing emotion.
As fate would have it, she moved to Florida. She was a water spirit. Living in North Dakota was really draining for her. I could see it in her whenever I saw her. Her move garnered different responses from different people. Her boyfriend was pissed she didn't want to stay with him., her friends all but turned on her. they couldn't imagine why she wanted to move. After moving away two years earlier, I saw it coming myself and got out. I just saw that time in my life as a chapter that was closing. Post college graduate, in grad school, all my friends getting married and moving away. My friendships disolved over my grilfriend getting pregnant. I was left with little or nothing, and with ensuing other things, made the move back to Minneapolis. It was, perhaps, the smartest thing I could have done. So when D wanted to move to Florida, for me, it was natural, she needed it. When I explained to her what my feelings were, she was happy to know that I supported her. Little did I know where it would lead. . .
For the little time that we did spend together, I always felt that she was my soul mate. I could always confide in her and she in me. After she moved, I got to spend the 1999 new year's with her. It was weird. She was seeing someone else (as usual) and told me when we got to the airport she was in love with this guy. This is the norm for her. She always fell for guys so hard and seeimingly so easy. New Year's eve was comical, the guy acted like a knob, they got into a fight, and things disolved from there. I ended up with her good friend and she came home sometime around 5am. It didn't bother me so much, but after I left and subsequent phone conversations, we tried to works omething out so we could be together. I now had my son, and leaving Minneapolis would be hard. It seemed as though we were at a standstill. This is pretty much where the story ends.
I talked with D briefly a few times last summer. She went through a very painful relationship, and her best friend and constant confidant had moved out to marry some older guy. We talked for a long time, and it seemed that time was running over us. It was at this time I relenquished all my feelings for her and stopped my school boy fantasies of ever seeing her again, or being with her again. Our coversation was more about what we had become, not if we would ever be together. It was really sad for me.
I wrote her a long poem years ago, when my heart was broken and I couldn't get her on the phone. The story of two lost souls, hopelessly intagled, never to be together. She was my angel, and always will be. She will never be to far out of my thoughts. If nothing else, I can hold on the few nights we were together. Magical, simply magical.
So this was the one who seemingly got away. If ever I could change anything, it would be to spend it with her. Lost chances, lost loves, it's all part of life. D will always be with me, and I with her.
Glad I could finally spill my thoughts on this one.
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TEN MORE DAYS GONE. . . . . .
Okay, so not much going on here. My son is still here and the last two weeks were hell. Too much work, not enough free-time for the people that matter in my life. But alas, some good things are actually going on.
Hmmmmmmmm, I gotta get our business plan done for the mobile service center. I already gave my boss a copy of the stuff he'll need for the retail stores. I really had to emphasis the absolute need not to skimp on anything listed. Otherwise, the wicked witch from the North from Nextel will come and try to shut us down. She shut my boss's service center down last time and she's already pissed as hell we got our service center back. I have no time for these stupid quarrels. Let me run my business and we'll be just fine and what I'm going to tell her the next time I see her. So I will be managing the service centers and will be instrumental in getting the mobile service center up and running as well. Lots on my plate coming up - which is good for me. I'm kinda a work-a-holic. But with everything, sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't.
WOAH! Kinda got on a roll there. I was actually working on my Mobile Service Center business plan and totally forgot about my friendly neighborhood blog.
Ok, so I put my BP on hold until tomorrow. I also put the website on hold for now. I figure if my boss thinks I'm so important, he can chip in for me to update and maintain the website for a nominal fee. Christ, the guy hates doing anything internet related and to a degree I have him kinda bent over. So until he caves, I won't be doing much work on that. Which in turn will allow me to continue my ongoing work on my various other projects. Hee hee hee.
Don't look now, but guess who is about to make history??
In any case, I'm not so sure Lance is going to make it six. Even though the majority of his rivals are long gone, Ivan Basso is keeping stride with him and could very well be a threat to getting his six. I'm really pulling for him, but I'm sure there's plenty of drama ahead.
So what else is new? I'm close ot getting my bike finished. since my co-worker is buying my bike, I will hopefully be getting the last crucial piece of the bike (my Race Face DEUS crankset) soon and get this thing finished in a few weeks. I'm not ocunting on my co-worker actually buying the bike, so I'm already in plan B for what alternate crankset I will go with - money permitting of course. . .
Oh well, lots of political stuff going on. too much funny stuff to mention here! Sandy HAMBurgler sticking classified documents down his pants is pretty funny. Oh well, more laters brah!!!
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DAYS INTO NIGHTS. .
WOW. I'm in another one of my depressing moods. It's raining outside today and I've get Ella crooning to me on my computer. Who wouldn't be depressed by that? It's a big band day. I use this music to get away from this crazy world we're livin in. IT's nice to hear the real entertainers fo a decade gone past. I know I've waxed estatic about this stuff before - but this is GOOD music!!
So anyways, what's going on in the big crazy world we live in? Well, it's an election year, Kerry finally picked his running mate, woot fricking woot. Things have queited down a bit on the terrorist front. Some big attack is in the works from our friends over at the Al-Quaida camps. They're actually going to influence our elections. I guess that's one more thing we can thank those stupid Spainards for. If they had the nuts not to collapse to these animals, the terrorists wouldn't feel like they have any hope in having an impact on our elections.
Oh well, on to more important things. Still working feverishly on my business. It's coming along nicely. If you want a preview, check here. It obviously still has some bugs to work out, but I think you get the idea. This week sucked, I have to work all weekend and am really looking forward to getting some days off in the last two weeks to spend time with my son.
Oh yeah, can't forget about Lance, he's dropped back to 6th now, but he's content. the US Postal team needs to be strong and rested for the final weeks in the mountains. This is traditionally where Lance takes over. So the team needs to ber ready to go. So resting them right now is what's important. Most of the leaders are virtual unknowns. Another of his rivals Patachhi dropped out in Stage 5, so that's more good news. I think he's got it. He looks strong, he's staying whitin striking distance, so it looks good so far.
So with that. . .
NUMBER 6 COMING RIGHT UP!!!!
Other than Lance going for his 6th straight Tour victory, I'm getting the itch to skate again REALLY BAD!! This summer has been a wash. I'm working too much and not enjoying my free time. It's like every second is taken up by something trival. Work takes such a HUGE chunk of my time - it sucks!! After my son is gone in August, I'm going to make a point to go to some skateparks to have some fun. Soccer? I'm so blah blah blah on it right now.
OH! SNAP!! I almost forgot. My bike is as close to completion as possible. Just afew more things and then construction begins! I'm waiting for one of the mechanics to come back from vacation before I start putting all the shit together. I'm going to unveil it at ERIKS annual 3 hours of Lebanon. Should be fun.
this week I've heard Mike Wilson on three different radio shows promoting his new movie "Michael Moore Hates America." Since Moore's own Fareheit 9/11 has come out, I've been shocked to find that so many people are just totally un-informed. Crazy. . . maybe Moore was right all along about how stupid and easily convinved people have become.
As with every post, I try and end it with a nice picture. . I fashion it after John Stewarts "Moment of Zen" on the daily show.
So here you go, in honor of those still serving our country. This is for them, so that we may never forget what they're fighting for.
WHO MORE THAN SELF LOVED THEIR COUNTRY, YOU WILL NEVER BE FORGOTTEN
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MORE FROM THE EDGE
It's been a hectic week. My baby has been in England, so I'm alone and taking care of my son until she gets back on Saturday. So it's been all me this week. It's been great to see my son, what I have seen of him. ERIKS has me working so damn much, it's not good. I'm thinking about quitting. It just seems like everybody is only out for themselves. So from now on, I'm going to be a total asshole and get MY time off. Fuck my loyality to the company, from now on - it's all about me, nobody else.
So after working three days in a row, I get to finally see my son tonight. Oh wait, I have to clean the house and get ready for my Baby coming home tomorrow. Don't want her to come home toa dirty house, right? So I figure I'll at least have a few hours to spend with him. Hopefully we can find something fun to do. We broke out my acient Dungeon and Dragons board game from like 1980 or something. We played it for a while, then I stayed up for another 2 hours trying to win the game, too funny.
So my bike is finally coming together nicely. I'm just starting to realize it's not the big items that are going to kill me. It's my drive not to skimp on any parts. I WANT to get a new seat, some new tires, and new pedals. I figure if I'm going to do this right - LETS DO IT RIGHT!! So now I'm down to ordering my wheels. I have my disc brake stuff, my shifting stuff (all SRAM), and now, the last big purchase will be my wheels. My timetable is to have it ready for the big "3 hours of lebanon" race that ERIKS has every year. If I can get my wheels and my cranks within the next few weeks, it shouldn't be a problem.
So what else is new? Another few ideas for a business. I'll keep those in my back pocket in the meantime to see where it leads. I'm building a website (since I have SO much fricking time here) for it right now, so I'm getting excited.
Oh yeah, Michael Moore's "documentary" came out and has since taken quite a lashing from the media. The guy is a total fraud. I'm just glad another Minneosta native has taken him on in his own film, "Michael Moore Hates America." Check out the website www.michaelmoorehatesamerica.com
the movie looks G R E A T. Not a hatchet job on Mr. Moore, just an honest look to see if the American dream still exists.
Oh well, vegging out here in the office, listening to some KILLER vocal trance music on shoutcast. Ahhhh athe power of the internet. Thank God I haven't had any completely stupid people here the last few days. Like these:
CUST: I get get service in XYZ area, but I can see the tower right in my back yard, why can't I get any signal when the tower's that close?
ME: Sir, how did you know it's a Verizon tower?
CUST: Ummmmmmmmmmm, wellllllllllllllll, IIIIIIIIIIII guess I didn't.
Ok people, carriers don't allow people to know where their towers are. It would be akin to releasing KFC's secret recipe. Also, think if you were one pissed off customer and decided to go on a little commando raid. Imagine the problems a company could have if one of their towers suddenly fell over?? I think you get the point.
CUST: I'm interested in switiching carriers. Please tell me about all the price plans you have.
ME: Ummmmmmmmmm yeah, we represent 5 major carriers. Those carriers all have between 20-30 price plans each. You do the math lady. Got a few hours to kill?
MY ALL TIME FAVORITE IS THIS ONE:
CUST: So who has the best service?
ME: Sir, that would be like me asking a car salesmen which car that he sells is the best one.
Getting wireless service is really a big crap shoot. There are so many fucking variables involved it would make your head spin. I get dizzy just thinking about everything that has to go right to even make a call. Even if I tell you a carrier is awesome, you may get a crap phone, or service in your particular area might not be good. No matter what, you just never know. You can read all the reviews, do all your research, but in the end, it's a roll of the dice.
Okay. so last thought. Euro 2004 is almost over. England was dreadful to say the least. Becks missed TWO, count them two PK's, then blamed it on his training. I love the guy, but BITCH PLEASE. At least nut up and take the heat. The guy is still an amazing player, I think the Euro championship has become a curse for the English. Oh well. . . .
I'll post more on the election, the turn over of power to the IRAQI's and So Damn Insane's trial, later this week. Oh yeah and Hosoi got outa prison after a 5 year stint. WEIRD.
At least I'll leave with this. . . my first love - skateboarding.
I LOVE THAT FEELING!!
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CHUTZPAH!
It's been almost a month since my last post. So much has happened in just a few weeks, it's crazy.
Jesus, where do I start? My ex-girlfriend got a DUI. She called me when I was on vacation to ask for advice. My advice? Don't drink and drive! Haha. I've been pulled over twice for "suspicion of drunk driving". I got off twice with nothing more than warnings. Twice was enough for me.
Ummmmmmmm went on a week's vacation to FLA. That was well worth it. I was soooooo burned out at ERIKS, I just needed some time off. Sitting around sipping frozen drinks and catching some rays was very very nice.
I'm still following the election stuff, Bush is my guy. I keep hearing all these idiots talking about how he's done this wrong and this wrong. Well then, let's hear some better plans. You have islamic idiots running around bombing us and trying to kill as many of us as possible. So what should do we do? Bury our heads and hope they stop sometime? We tried that for eight years under Clinton - it didn't work. Now Bush bascially said, "Alright bitches, smile for the GUNS!!" Sometime soon, we will be forced to step up the punishment to these people and their cause. I just don't like the idea of an islamic nation - NOT COOL!
So my son is coming this weekend, so I'm really excited. I can't wait to see the little guy again. We have a TON of stuff planned. the batting cages, riding our bikes, rollerblading, skateboarding, all kinds of cool stuff.
Oh well, too much more to list here, but I'll leave you with this:
My cousin (weapons specialist, United States Marine Core) almost got sent back to Iraq. Fortunately, his previous orders were to be in Hawaii. So he got lucky and re-assigned. So this is for him and not only everybody serving now, but also all of the Veterans that have proudly served our country. I am forever in your debt. It is under the blanket of freedom that have given me that I sleep. THANK YOU.
GOD BLESS YOU ALL!!!!
ITS SO EASY. . .
It's funny. When your a conservative and have strong views on things, people get uneasy. I think it's mainly due to this PC coma our culture has gone into. It's so easy being a liberal. You can always change your mind to whatever suits you at any time. Many of my friends do this and seem to think it's ok. It's like they never have the same view on anything twice. Not to mention they find it easy to critique our current government, but can't seem to come up with a better solution. John Kerry is the eptiome of this. First he's against the war, then he's for it. Or is it the other way around?? First he didn't think people's service in the armed forces should matter (ala 1991 speech defending Clinton), then all of a sudden, it matters.
It's funny when you ask my friends how you trust someone who flip flops on everything he ever voted for, how do you know he's going to vote the way you want him to when it counts??
It makes no sense to me.
On to more important things.
The Scott Peterson case opened today. Woot fricking woot. Kobe's case is still ongoing. Even though he was smug and his Lakers got past my Wolves, I still think he's going to get off. they just ruled today the woman will not be referred to as "the victim". Personally, I think this woman is a slut and manipulated all kinds of things to get to Kobe. She knew what she was doing and now she's looking for the quick 18 year plan. Nice try. So what's my evidence you say?
1) She had all the security detailed moved away form Kobe's flat prior to her going there so they could be alone.
2) She took a round about route to get to Kobe's room so as not to be seen by the CC TV camera's that are present throughout the compound.
3) She had sex with another man shortly after she was supposedly raped. Not exactly the standard behavior from a woman who was just raped.
4) She boasted to her friends she had sex with Kobe. Again, not exactly the standard behavior for a woman who was just raped.
So what the hell is new with me besides all the crap in the news?
Rain, lots and lots of rain. The shit just doesn't stop. We had a decent Monday. It was still windy and cold, so I didn't go riding and I didn't go play golf. Sucks, but I got to have a nice long nap, so I can't complain.
My job search has ground to a halt. With all this stuff going on here at the office, I just haven't had any time to do anything really. So onward and upward I guess.
I hit on another great idea on what I could if I left my current position.
So anyways, not much will be happening in the next two weeks, so don't expect much.
I'll leave you with this:
I remember days like this. The sun going down, a killer session wrapping up. Going home to the setting sun. Ahhhhhhhhh those days are still within in my grasp. . . .
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ONE MORE THOUGHT
So one topic that I haven't spent too much time on is ChemTrails. When I originally set up this blog, it was supposed to be more personal than anything else. I also started another blog specifically for the purpose of tracking the weather and the ongoing spraying activity in this area (Minneapolis, Minnesota).
My last entry in that blog was in October. Friday, October 10th to be exact. Since that entry, I have done a more intensive search and investigation into chem-trails. Some of the websites that people have put up are very well done. Others are very much in the conspiracy vein and are easy to look at the pictures and wonder what exactly gave people the impression that these were chem-trails.
Even though I do like conspiracies just as much as the next guy, I have to admit the only evidence I ended up with are some photos, some strange weather patterns and a TON of pure speculation.
I have no doubt something is going on - just exactly what though remains a mystery. Here are some of my doubts and questions I have. When I've posted these in chem-trail news groups looking for answers, all I seem to get is people telling me I'm an idiot and a turncoat. When in reality, I'm just looking for some answers that nobody else seems to have.
So here we go - things to consider. . .
1) My major problem with this is the lack of evidence. Name a conspiracy that doesn't have people coming forward to tell their story. The UFO and JFK conspiracies come to mind. In either case, tons of people have come forward to give information to fan the conspiracy flames. NOT ONE PERSON, NOT ONE RESEARCHER, NOT ONE PILOT HAS COME FORWARD TO TELL THE WORLD WHAT MISDEEDS THEY HAVE IMPOSED ON INNOCENT CITIZENS. WHERE ARE THE TESTIMONIALS OF THESE PEOPLE???
2) How are the aerosals being dispersed? Yes, we all know planes are the main culprit - but what is the delivery system? There are numerous websites that have pictures of umpteen commercial airplanes supposedly dropping large chemtrails. I've seen a ton of pictures of underbellies of planes. These planes are shown with no additional unusual equipment capable of dispersing the amounts of chemicals people seem to be reporting.
3) Who is involved? To date, I have not heard of any specific individuals that are involved in these operations. I know certain organizations such as HAARP may have connections to chemtrails. No invidual or individuals that I know of, have been named as lead conspirators. Most websites only refer to a vast government conspiracy.
So this is what I am left with. A bunch of unanswered questions and a feeling like this is going nowhere. Mind you, I've already spent close to three years following this and collecting what little data is out there. What I do know, is that something is going on. However, without further conclusive proof, I can only determine that yes spraying is happening, but I cannot come to the conclusion that a vast conspiracy exists.
Here are some of the best websites for chemtrail analysis and information:
Clifford Carnicom
Chem-Trail Central
Stop Chemtrails!
I commend all three sites for giving a ton of links, pictures, and a forums for discussion.
so remember. . . .
THE TRUTH IS UP THERE!!!!
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OHHHHHHHHHHHHH SHIT!!!
That's usually the reaction you have when you realize you just got stuck for saying something stupid. Say, like when people say that there were no WMD's in Iraq. Of course, the liberals and dems forgot that they too apparently got duped too. Because if they think the republicans mislead the country, then they should shoulder some of the blame as well, because they were standing atop the mountain shouting when Billy the Willy was still in office saying the same shit.
My friend sent me this and I got a big kick out of it. Take a long pause when you read John Kerry's quote.
Oh yeah - this just in from the DNC - Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh SHIT! So I guess there really wasn't any WMD in Iraq, were there? Too flippin funny.
Another celebration took place for me today. You know you have to be happy when my Israeli S.O.D.'s mount up. the article alone put a big grin on my face.
Oh well on to more important things. My RED DEVILS have a chance to claim some hardware when they take on Millwall for the FA Cup final. This could seriously dampen some of the pain of ending up third in FA this season.
so:
Alright. So my passion this summer is getting my bike
up and running. I just need a few more parts to make it happen, but I don't think I'll be riding it until late July or August. But I see it as an attainable goal. We'll see.
I have yet to play soccer this summer. An assistant manager quitting and another in college has left me working Monday's. Even worse? Hockey moved to Monday's. So if I really want to, I can double up and play both - in one day. How fucking crazy would that be? I'd like to do it just to prove to myself that I can.
Oh well, life is still great. Still hitting it hard looking for another job. I've had a few good options, but nothing worth pursuing. So onward and upwards, I suppose.
Still looking towards my son coming this summer. It's been too long.
So the question for the day is this:
If they legalize GAY marriage - then shoudl these be legal too? I mean if marraige is defined as a right. . .shouldn't these be allowed as well under the same law?
1) Men should be able to marry as many women as he is "entitled" too. I mean, if two one wife is good, how much better would two be?
2) Can I marry my dog too? I mean, Marriage is a right - isnt it?
3) What about marrying my cousin, under the law, that should be legal too - right?
PASSING LAWS TO MAKE A CERTAIN SEGMENT OF THE POPULATION HAPPY IS NOT THE WAY TO MAKE OUR COUNTRY BETTER!!!!
Oh yeah, I almost forgot. . .
"I feel ya BIG TICKET!!!"
Better get used to seeing this. . HERE COME THE DRUMS. . .
Go T-Wolves!!!!
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THE SUN RISES AGAIN
After my rage yesterday, I really had to contain myself from doing something stupid. I'm over it now - I had a few decent dreams last night, so all is well again.
I had an interesting conversation with the mother of my son. It was funny, I just stayed calm and get her all wound up. I get a big kick out of pushing her buttons. If nothing else, that put a smile on my face.
Right now, all I know is that it's snowing in North Dakota and raining here. I always like the rain. Depressingly mellow, the greys, the blues, I like it. Add in the right mix of oldies music (Frank, Dean, Count Bassie, Ella) and you got yourself a plot for a movie.
I have life so good right now, so to have a little grey peek in every once and a while is good. I get to sit at lunch and ponder the meanings of life, my place in this crazy world, etc, etc. The kind of questions you just let your mind wander around for a bit, until the infinite possibilities overwhelm you and your just glad to be alive.
Too funny. I'll be doing that shortly. I haven't written any poems for so long, maybe I'll bust some for ya tomorrow when its raining again.
Alright - so I teased a rant I had coming on. . . so here goes:
So what I've found in the past few years is something that has irked me for some time.
SO DO THESE LETTERS MEAN ANYTHING TO ANYBODY??
R T F M ??
So the largest segment of the population right now are the baby boomers. You know, the kind that had a hell of a time growing up and proved to be an amazing generation of people. the do everything by themselves, the 60's, the 70's, you know the bit.
This is my rant. This people have turned into complete and utter dependents. They dont want to read any manuals, they dont have that experimental attitude anymore. They want everything handed to them on a plate and served up nice and hot.
I tried, man, I fucking tried to push them to do it on their own, but they are just too damned stubborn! So here's the debate that I've started at work. What is the cause of this? Is it just old age laziness? Or are they taking a cue from the generation behind mine (Mine OF COURSE being the X generation) and just thinking they deserve to have everything their way and we should just show them how to do everything. The debate is very interesting to say the least.
So I'm listening to Sammy Davis Jr. sing "The Lady's A Tramp", what a classic. I love the Rat Pack. I love the 50's. Am I dreamer? Or do I just long for the way things used to be? Such an easier time in Americana.
So with all this crap going on lately, here's a few enduring pictures from the past that always puts a smile on my face. I hope it puts one on your's too.
enjoy. . . .
I miss you Frank. Say hello to Deano for me. Keep the band playin till I get there.
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FUCKING ANIMALS
well, well, well what does it take to get someone's attention? The liberal media ran with this prisoner abuse story and look what happened. An innocent American, kidnapped and murdered because of our "abuse" of Iraqi prisoners.
I have totally run out of emotion for this. I'm still going to vote for Bush no matter what. I just go insane listening to these democrat left wingers who are quick to point out our failures, but can't seem to give me a decent argument on what the solution is. You hear them all day calling in to shows saying Bush did this and that, but when pressed for their solution, don't have anything. Nice, go home and smoke some more weed and have a big tall glass of shut the fuck up juice!
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh - so from this day forward, no more Iraqi bullshit, arguments, thoughts, ideas, words. Nothing. It has taken too much out of me. If you can't see the truth, then too damn bad. Maybe someday you'll see the light. It just gets me too pissed to talk about anything else positive in my life.
So the weather is getting nicer, and I've been getting more job offers. I've been sitting on my ERIKS proposal for some time, just to see what else would come along in the meantime. It is'nt going to happen. Not enough money, even with bonuses and commissions. I came to the conclusion that its a cool part-time job, but that doesn't translate well to the future.
My son is coming up this summer and I'm excited to see him again. It's already been too long and I miss the little guy!
Oh yeah, so while I've been ranting and raving about Iraq, I've come to another startling conclusion about the baby boomer generation. . . .
but alas, it's time to go home.. .
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Dont worry - I fill ya in in tomorrow!!!
SOMETIMES ITS EASIER
Today was interesting. I got a call from sister and she railed on me for about an hour. This shit has been building for about 5 years. I didn't think she was one to hold a grudge, but I guess I was wrong. I always thought I was the one that held the long grudges - oh well.
Her points were that I missed her wedding pictures, missed her first daughter being born, and a laundry list of other shit that gets rather involved.
So are there any excuses for missing this stuff? Since my sister is my only sibling, I would have to answer no. There can be NOTHING that is more important than family. My mother chalked it up to, "That's just the kind of person he is." Which is true on some levels, it but it begs further questions.
I wont go into grave detail, but at that time in my life, things were not going well for me. It's a long story, but my priorities were totally fucked up. Now, I can sit back and look at it and see where I went wrong. Then, going to my sisters wedding came in second to working and making money. Did I really care at the time? Not really. It didn't bother me so much, simply because it wasnt that high on my priority list. Does it excuse me from blame? No way.
Which brings me to my next point. Am I really that kind of person? I think to a certain extent I am. Although I was born a Leo, I tend to be intorverted and not have many friends. The friends I do have are usually fleeting. This has been going on since high school. Since I have so many things that I'm interested in, I never really fit into one "clique". I played soccer and hockey. BUT I loved heavy metal music and rap. I loved skateboarding, BUT I played hockey and soccer. The groups of people that were my friends were in constant conflict. The jocks hated the metal heads, the skaters hated the jocks. I was stuck in the middle. Fortunately, I have but one friend that I've known since we grew up in the same neighborhood. That's about it.
I feel the real reason that I don't have many friends is that I can never find a friend that really fits the definition. Have I ever fucked over a friend? My record would not seem to indicate so. Have MY friends fucked me over? Several times. So this is what I struggle with. If you're my friend, why do you fuck me over? I conclude then they are not really my friends and I move on. This actually happened in college. I played soccer and met a great group of guys that I played with. A huge falling out with a my girlfriend (whose best friend just happened to be my roommates girlfriend) and all of a sudden, I have no friends. They all just disappeared. I thought that guys always stuck together. I was wrong.
Yeah, we still play soccer together and are still on the same team, but I dont consider them my friends anymore. You could say we have a "professional" relationship. So once again, I basically dumped all those losers and moved on.
So to me, I have but three or four people that I can really rely on and consider those people my friends. People come into my life and go out now like a swinging door. Friends dont mean that much to me. Am I too nice of a guy? I respect people until they fuck it up. Another great case was my friend Ed. I thought he was a cool guy and when I started working at ERIKS. We got along great and hung out quite a bit. He met my now X girlfriend, after we broke up (neither told me this until later) they started "hanging out" together and fooling around behind my back. So this is the guy I loaned money to freely, chased women with, worked and partied with. Yeah, what a fucknut. I was so pissed, and so I just stopped hanging out with him and just thought of him as a total asshole that took adavantage of our friendship.
I once told my mom I wanted to be a wonderer. I guess I'm livin up to that notion. I have three permenant friends and I don't really care. My priorities are but mine alone. If doesn't make me happy - then fuck it, it ain't worth it.
I've been so fucking un-selfish and caring to everyone around me and I just stopped caring about 6 years ago. That would have coincided with my sisters wedding. The swath I cut, just happened to include my family - which was a bad choice on my part. Now, I'm going to spend the rest of my dying days trying to make up for something I thought was ok. Penenace to me, that I'm willing to accept to make things right with my sister.
So here's my conclusion. We live in a world that is tragically self-centered. For 6 years, I couldnt give a fuck. It saved me from dealing with people and their baggage. It saved me from caring about people I thought were my friends. Unfortunately what it didn't do - was find me love. I didn't hate myself, I just didn't like anybody around me. I just didn't give a fuck about anything near me - really.
So here I sit, totally happy and content with my life. I have a gif that is madly in love with me, and I have a plan for the future,
So here is the final thought. Ala' my favorite band SAVATAGE
Never sleep alone on the subways
Never walk alone on the tracks
Never take a ride to the edge of your mind
Not unless you have a ticket back
Don't believe in T.V. preachers
Don't believe in talk show stars
Never follow trends if they turn on your friends
Just to be sure you know who your friends are
And if you're running blind
On a refueled mind
Better watch the time
And careful you don't go too far
Make sure you got a ticket back. . . .
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WHY?
Here is my daily rant about what's going on in IRAQ.
Another great question my friend posed to me is this: "Why the fuck are we trying to convince everybody (i.e. the european community, the arab world, etc, etc) to like us?"
That is a good question my man. I mean, let's apply this to your own life. Have you ever tried to get somebody to like you by not acting like yourself, only to find out you can only play that sharade so long??
So why are we, as Americans trying to impress everybody else in the world?? I don't get it. The Arab world is full of hypocrisy, yet when we stumble, everybody is suddenly pointing fingers. We are not perfect, nor do we hold ourselves out to be either. Yet everybody likes to take thier stabs at us.
Personally I don't care if people from other countries likes us. FUCK THEM. Guess what?? We have the greatest country on the face of the planet. If it wasn't, then why does everybody want to flee their countries to come here? Why do foreign leaders send their kids to US colleges?? We are the most liberal, religiously tolerant, openl culture in the world. NOBODY coddles other cultures like we do. We are the melting pot, period - end of discussion.
This ideology that we are the world's police force, here to save everybody from their disasters, invading neighbors and the like is hilarious to me. It's like we spend all this money to help these countries, then they turn around harbor the people that bombing us?? Hmmmmmm very illogical to me. . .
So here's a twist for you readers. . .
Being the environmentalist I am, I really believe that had we made a stronger effort to move on with alternative fuel sources, we wouldn't be tied up so much in this ordeal. It would have been easier to let all the middle eastern countries run amok themselves and just do away with each other. How much easier would that have been?? How good would it feel to just tell OPEC to go fuck themselves??
The convo would go something like this:
"Mr. President, we are going to raise your prices of oil up $10 per drum"
"Oh really Sheik?"
"Yes, you HAVE to pay us. . . "
"Ummmmm why don't youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu go fuck yourself?"
"What did you just say?"
"Did I studder? We don't need you, so kindly FUCK OFF. Oh yeah, what's 8" long and goes dead in your hands?"
*hangs up phone*
So I do to an extent believe that we really have nobody to blame but ourselves somewhat for being there. Our dependence on oil mandates that we have to keep that ugly part of the world in order for our supply chain to remain open. Can you imagine how happy Saddam would have been if he controlled the oil being sold to us?? Holy shit I don't even want to think about that!!!
More laters brah. .
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STARTING EARLY
Already I just read an article on my favorite news website about how the legacy of Pat Tillman will be remembered.
At least the university had the balls to say that the students remarks were without merit and quite immature. Get a clue. I hope this guy runs into some ROTC guys at a party and they just FLATTEN his ass. Now that would be funny.
To me, I see people seething out of jealousy because of what this man has done for his country. I just wonder how these same people would feel if he stayed in the NFL took the money and didn't listen to his heart. Would he be another money hungary jock?? Maybe I was brought up differently. Maybe it's becaue I have a cousin who is the Marines. Whatever it is, I can't seem to wrap my head around this argument or even this point of view.
The funny thing? I was raised in a liberal household. I voted for Bill Clinton. But those days are long gone. My point of view starting changing when I saw Bush stand up for this nation. Terrorists have been bombing us and killing our people since the 1980's. We as a nation couldn't care less. Until 9/11. It was as if the whole country FINALLY woke up. Although some of you are still fast asleep. Bush stood up and basically proclaimed that enough was enough. We're coming after you and we WILL eliminate you. He took a stand, and thank god he did.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh enouogh trying to argue with people who can't see past thier own noses.
Funny, thought I lost that last post, but it seems to have been posted anyways????
Dont ask me why.
Here's what I've been listening to lately - just in case your wondering. .
Fear Factory - Obsolete
best lyric from this song?
"Man is obsolete, ERASE, EXTINCT"
Super Dope Trance Addict Mix vol. 5
mix of vocal and high energy trance
Killswitch Engage - Alive or Just Breathing?
this album kicks ass. they have a song about 9/ll
read it, understand it. THINK about it.
Life To Lifeless
humanity cover me with the ashes of remembrance
i will learn from this pain
there is no darkness without light to teach us of ourselves
life to lifeless to eternity, life to lifeless the cycle repeats
death unfolds itself painfully to unmask how fragile we are
death unfolds itself painfully, teacher of sanity
the pain drags me down
i'll rebuild me
thats all I got for today. . . .
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YOU JUST CANT WIN
So I had a lenghty post about the situations in Iraq and all the anti-war stuff coming out. But alas, my co-worker slipped into my office and closed the window and lost all my stuff. ARRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGHHHHHHH
So THEN I just had a quick bullitted list of points I had made in the previous post that was erased. After being interrupted several times, and having several apps up and running - I was greeted with the ever so popular "blue screen of death".
Okay - so now its third down and I will be sure not to make that mistake again.
So let's get to it!!!!
I think Dennis Prager had the the best point of the day regarding the war in Iraq. His point was that Bush, like Reagan before him was shaking things up in the world in order to make it better. Bush wasn't about to wait for these carzies to attack again, and simply pre-empted another attack by going on the offense. I think that people WANT to take the easy way, Hopefully these people will leave us alone. PEACE does not work for these people. The best example is the Isreal vs. Palestine. Isreal continues to produce intellectuals, new innovations in just about every scientific field. Palestine continues to develop new ways to kill Jews. Hmmmmmmmmmm seems pretty obvious to me. One is bent on making their cultural better. One culture is bent on destroying the other. Nothing else, nothing more. If you disagree, then answer this questions. When the Palestinians were under Arab rule PRIOR to Isreal, why didn't they want thier own state then??????
It's funny to think that all these anti-war people think that war is not the answer. Oh really? So what is? Negotiating with terrorists? Maybe go to the UN? You mean THIS UN?? You mean the same UN that took the US off of its humanitarian committee and replaced us with Arab countries that practice genocide and believe that women are below them??
Oh yeah, so much for trying to humiliate Iraqi servicemen during interogations. One prisoner thought that the worst thing was that they were made to stand like women - the worst insult the Americans could give an Iraqi. It's humerous to think that people actually see that shit and think we are in the wrong?? Suddenly the Arab world that shows buses blowing people up and suicide bombers DAILY has a problem with this??
That is my issue witht he Arab world. 'They seem to think their shit don't stink. Guess what guys. . . it does.
Of all the stupid ass liberal garbage I've read out there, I've found they like to point fingers, but are short on what to do in order to tide the waves of terror and to stabilize the Arab world.
So to all you stupid, anti-war, anti-US, pot smoking, birkenstock wearing, tied died FUCK HEADS. Here is a message for you:
WAKE UP!!!!!
THIS NOT THE 70'S, THIS NOT VIETNAM. THIS IS REALITY. THERE ARE PEOPLE OUT THERE WHO ARE ENGAGED IN A WAR AGAINST US AND YOU!!!! THEY DON'T LIKE US BECAUSE THEY ENVY US. THEY WANT OUR FREEDOM, THEY WANT YOUR DREAMS. THEY WANT YOU TO REVERT BACK TO THE MIDDLE AGES. IF YOU'RE A WOMAN, YOU HAVE NO RIGHTS UNDER THEIR LAWS. IF THIS IS WHAT YOU WANT, AND DON'T BELIEVE IN WHAT WE ARE DOING, GO LIVE IN SYRIA FOR A YEAR AND FIND OUT FOR YOURSELF. CHILDREN ARE RAISED TO KILL YOU. THEY ARE KILLING US, AND ALL YOU CARE ABOUT IS CALLING OUR PRESIDENT AN IDIOT?????? WAKE UP!!!!!!!! THIS IS WAR, THERE ARE NO RULES IN THEIR BOOKS. THESE ARABS FIGHT LIKE COWARDS. THERE IS NO NEGOTIATING WITH THESE PEOPLE - YOU NEED TO WAKE UP NOW!!!!
I'm exasperated. . . . I have nothing else. I wish I could spend more time on my life, but these people are maddening.
So other than my absolute rage for people that just cannot see past thier simple little world - life is pretty good,
Still looking for a job, soccer started today. Since we are short a manager, I will miss the first few games. That sucks. Hockey is still going well. I scored 4 goals last week. I thought the job ERIKS was going to ffer me was going to be better. I have yet to hear fom the VP about my proposal.
Oh well.. . . .
Pat Tillman was laid to rest today. So I thank EVERY serviceman and women that are putting thier lives on the line to secure my freedom.
This is for them:
Those Now Gone
by Roger W Hancock
Fallen Servicemen,
for country fought;
liberty, freedom,
the primary reason.
They gave themselves,
that we be free
Fathers, mothers,
sisters, and brothers;
our dearly departed,
life for country given.
Families broken,
for liberty.
Veterans who served,
and lived to tell;
the horrors, and risks,
now sleep in peace.
Served their country,
for our security.
Unknown Soldier, MIA,
remembrance our way,
to honor you as well,
victims of a warriors hell.
Served, now lost that,
our lives be free.
Sleep now Sleep tight
rest now, duty done,
price paid in life or death.
The vigilance now be ours.
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ARRRRRRRRGGHHHHHHHH!!
Life sucks. Then you write for 20 minutes in your blog, only to have a co-worker close the window and LOOSE your entire entry!!!!
Oh well, this WAS the post, in a condensed version - naturally.
Point 1) Bomb the FUCK out of Fullajah and just kill em' all. I'm so tired of fucking Muslim extremists. I also tired of liberals/dems trying to get their anti-war rhetoric heard.
Point 2) Work is well. Soccer is starting, hockey is still going strong. Still looking for a new job, still gainfully employed in the meantime.
Point 3) Buy THIS album NOW!!! Or just go to THEIR website.
Point 4) Kerry was a bonesmen. Funny how nobody in the Democratic party supported him. Now, it looks like he'll get the nominations.
Point 5) Besides the UN being a joke, the Pro-Choice crazies were out in numbers this past week. Don't get me wrong, I believe in choice, but these women are just plain C R A Z Y. HEY LADIES!!!! If you're so concerned about your rights, why don't you go over to Afghanistan or Saudi Arabia and demonstrate for the women there?!?!?!?
Point 6) Oh yeah, you should listen to THIS radio station in order to find out what you're missing in your feeble liberal existence. Dennis Prager alone should be enough to open your eyes!
More things to think about people. . .
GODSPEED my friends,
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LOTS TO DIFFUSE
So the war is still raging on. Americans continue to get killed and the liberals continue to amuse me with their anti-war rhetoric. "I support the troops, but I don't agree with what they are doing." Nice fucking cope out. Just like people to take a middle of the road stance. Sorry folks, that logic doesn't fly with me. We have too much at stake and right now, all this political correctness has our hands tied.
If we continue to NOT shoot at these bastards because they run into Mosques and hide between women and children - WE ARE DOOMED TO FAILURE. Instead of letting the dogs loose, we are trying to go about eradicating these cowards by nipping and tucking when possible and playing into their hands. I say let's have some B1's go in and just flatten the whole town of Fallujah. Would it be easier to flatten the city, kill all the inurgent bastards and send a nice warning to the rest of the country that we are not to be fucked with. Give the cities women and children 24 hours to clear out. Leave the terrorists behind and then just carpet bomb the city until nothing is left. So what's easier? Battle block by block, loosing valuable American lives. Or just flatten the city and then rebuild it?? You think anybody else would pick up arms if they knew we would drop the hammer?? I Doubt it.
So besides the war, my job search continues. I totally revamped my resume and I think it looks great. So my new catch phrase that has creeped into my vocabulary is, "Well, we'll just wait and see - ok?" I dunno where this came from, but I use it WAY TOO MUCH!!!
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh elctronica. the past couple of years I've really been getting into trance music. Strangely enough, I use it to do relaxation exercises. It works so well, I use it for 15 minutes on my lunch,
'Ummmmmmmmmm so what else? I stopped skateboarding for a while. Soccer started up again and I have hockey tonight. I'm debating giving up socer to play more hockey, but haven't totally made up my mind.
If your a fan of music - you NEED to pick up this album
or just check out their website.
I haven't talked with my son for a week and I feel like shit. I saw somw guy walking his son when I was going to work and just about broke down. So all morning I wrote notes in my palm pilot that I need to call him every other day.
That's pretty much all I have to say. Other than the past week was spent on Pat Tillman on radio talk shows here. The guy was a fucking hero - end of story. Ruch Limbaugh was reading posts on some liberal website. I was pretty shocked that people could look at him and what he did and find negativity. They were saying it served him right, that nobody cares, etc, etc. I guess that's why we live here. FREEDOM can be a mindfuck sometimes.
So am I losing touch? Nawwwwwwwwww. Too manyt hings going on. We have a war that despite what people say - we are winning. It's an election year and the Dems and Libs are strugggling to find people to agree with their views and their "canidate". Sometimes I think people disagree with the war just to be cool. Whenever I engage some of these peoiple in a "conversation" they usually end up sputtering and can't seem to find a coherent argument to stand on. then they go on to say that Bush is a doorknob and he's only in the whitehouse because of his Dad.
Really? To that I usually reply - Kerry also went to Yale. did you know that he was a Bonesmen?
Interesting how NOBODY in the Democratic party actually supported Kerry. Then out of nowhere - he gets the nomination??
Things to think about people. . . .
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