THE NEGATIVE REACTION

It's never been easy to say goodbye. .

When my son was younger, and his Mom was dragging me all over the country from Minnesota to Georgia to Missouri, I always had a tough time saying goodbye. I was usually cool and calm when I'd tell him I love him and see him in a few months again. By the time I got back to my car, I was in tears, convinced his Mother thought much about her son. To me, she always interested in her own agenda, and his was just being brought along for the ride.

Her exclusion of me from his life should be obvious to anybody. He was in and out of several schools until his Mother finally gave up and put him in a Military school for three years. Until they found out they were moving to Australia. Which brings me to today.

The last goodbye

I thought today was going to be tough, but I guess I've accepted the fact he's going away for two years. I'll most likely see him later this year in Hawaii. My Mom is already hard at work working on putting a trip together in November or January. I did I could today which was to hug him and tell him I love him and hope his collerbone heals up nicely. I also said we'd talk online with Skype when he finally gets over there. I just hope the next two years go a lot smoother than the last two at Hargrave. Lord knows he could use it.

On the way home. .

I told my Dad it was interesting to not feel the sadness and depressing feelings I had when we'd drop him at the airport when he was younger. I told him I thought Australia would be good, and he could finally get a good break and enjoy school, have a social life like a real fifteen year old kid and be able to enjoy the last of his teenage years. My Dad agreed and alsp mentioned he's older and more mature now and can take care of himself. When he was younger, it was easy to get emotional because he was still somewhat of a child. Either way, I wish him only the best.

I have no idea why I thought about this song, but I did. I thought it was strange, but it just reminds of me the situation - just so many vast differences between myself and his mother. .