THE NEGATIVE REACTION

AM I OFFICIALLY OLD NOW??

My most recent post (ahem, over a month ago now) talked about my mid life crisis and my fears of growing old.  My fears have been somewhat confirmed.  Like my lack of committment?  I do, it allows me to talk about getting older, without actually admitting it.  Better my ego and my subconscious don't take it too seriously.  But I digress.  I had an eye appointment a few weeks back and was dreading it.  I know I squint a lot and since I sit in front of a computer all day, I figured I was about due.  I go in and the first thing is the doc asked me if anybody in my family has glasses.  I said yeah, they all do - except me.  After a few quick tests, he gave me the "good" news.  I have astigmatism with my eyes and over time, it will most likely get worse.  Since I stare at a PC all day long, he thought glasses 
would help me see better and of course it will be easier on my eyes.  The perscription he gave me was 
pretty weak compared to my family members.  When I showed my father my perscription, he basically laughed at me and said I was lucky.  Without his glasses, my Dad is basically blind.  Needless to say, it made me fell better I needed glasses, but not that bad.  So now I have a pair of glasses I use at work and they work awesome.  I can really tell my eyes don't have to work as hard anymore.  I think I'm still in the breaking in period because when I take them off, my eyes take a minute or two to adjust to not wearing them.  Hopefully soon I'll be ok either way.

Here I am on a Saturday night, listening to Leo Cohen's "I'm Your Man" cd.  Its an old CD and it reminds me of Fargo. Which is                                                                            a nice transition into the next topic at hand.  I'm having a LOT of dreams about NDSU again.  
least I think I'm finally coming to terms with these demons.  Instead of the agonizing, depressing, lost dreams I used to have, they've become more joyful at least.  More laughing, more interesting and less sad.  I dunno how to address this
new take on these dreams, but it has been something I can ponder during my 35 minute drive to work in the morning.  

Soccer is going well.  My 3rd Division team is 6-1 and on top of the divison.  My 1st divison team isn't doing all that well, we're 3-2 and in the middle of the pack.  I dunno why I don't get more playing time on my 1st division team.  In our last game, I had two assists on both goals.  If not for our sweeper, we would've won 2-1, instead of losing 3-2.  I guess that's why they play the game huh?  Oh well, at least that "other" team isn't doing so well either.  2-4 and sucking fumes at the bottom of their divison.  They also went 0-6-1 in their indoor league.  I'm jsut wondering when their going to get sick of losing and wise up.  Guess its not my place.  I was considering contacting PK, but just haven't had the balls to yet.  I mean, it was probably the best thing for me since I dropped about 10 lbs, got quicker and my shot is harder than it was in college.  I've also achived my goal of finally playing on a 1st division team.  I'm pretty sure afte this year, I'll get more playing time.  Our team is just so deep at the midfield position, its hard to play well when all the guys are so good.

Just as an update, the immigration bill failed and thank gawd for that.  It would have granted a sort of "amensty" to illegals already here and allow them to get citizenship.  What a stupid bill.  I seriously doubt anything will get done with any of these major issues till afte the election.  Bush is too lame duck right now and both parties are posturing for a shot at the white house.  

The Apple iphone was finally released this week amid a ton of speculation and long lines at AT&T stores nationwide.  You can read all about it
at Engadget.  I'm not even remotely interested in it, but it's been about the biggest hyped techno gadget over the past 5 years or so.  There are many cool things about like the removal of any keys and an all touch screen interface.  Only time will tell if its truly worth its weight in gold.  

Anways, no soccer on these days, just this stupid soccer show.  Which is sad considering I'm kinda getting into it now that I've attempted to get through a
whole episode.  I cound it curious the show's team Harchester United sounds remarkably similar to my other favorite premier league team Manchester United.  I can't say I've ever delved into investigating if there are any links intentional or not.  All I know is there are some serious betty's on the show: