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SLOW JUST SLOWER

As the minutes drag. I'm sitting in my office trying to figure out how to waste another 30 minutes of time before I can leave. 1 call and 1 email today, the busiest travelling day of the year (or os I'm told) and I'm stuck here. Not that I mind, I just can think of several other places I'd liked to be - that's all.

I've found momentary comfort from Pink Floyd streaming through my headphones. Today's CD, "The Division Bell" is a hauntingly good cd. Lots of emotions and agony and sorrow - those same friends who never seem to let me go, but hang around long enough so that they're never forgotten.

At least there is some happiness going on later today. I'm heading down to Iowa to pick up my son for the weekend, which will be fun. Happy Days are here again - huh? You know, all things considered, I can't be too down or pessimistic, my life is good and I have a lot of things I never thought I could achieve. Nice house, brand new car (2007 Dodge Caliber), great job, great wife. What more could a guy ask for? I think happiness is found in what you have, not what we think we lack. This brings me to the philosophical question of the day: When you go through a mess of shit, and come out the other side, and look around and you thank your God (whomever that may be) you survived, do you look and around and just appreciate you're alive and doing well and accept what you have. Or do you have to push on, to do more, be more successful and continue to strive to achieve more?? I asjked my Dad this since we both went through some insanely depressing times and went through hell ourselves. He had an interesting take. He said you go through it, you survive and look forward, never back, and never accept mediocrity. He said if you get into a mode where you think you have everything, what are you still missing? We're all still missing something - aren't we??

It was an interesting take. I always gave my father's opinons a lot of weight. I saw what he did with his life and have to believe someday I'll make him proud. I'm pretty sure he's already proud of me, but in my own mind, I can't compare my success to his - its just not something I can do.

I continue to have all of these deep thoughts at times when I really need to have a laptop or at least some paper handy to jot some of this stuff down. Its as if I'm at the crossroads of my life (still) and am not confused on what direction I want to go, I'm just enjoying being there - trying to take in as much of my life as I can.



It's like I said, when you've come out on the other side of a shit storm, the sky is bluer, the air is fresher, and the grass is greener. Nowadays, sometimes I so in touch with my senses, it's crazy. Just to pause and watch life go by can be rather amazing and theraputic.

17 minutes and counting . . . . .

The one thing I do have to get back to is my relaxation excercises and getting back in tune with the ASC part of me which has been seriously lacking. My soul is restless, and needs its excercise too - right?

Here's a sampling of what's going on in current events right now. . .

1) Democrats took back the Senate from the Republicans - there was much rejoicing at my parents house - not so much ours though.
2) We're still in Iraq, still looking for a way out. I recently read a Newsweek article which had the best solution I've laid out in a long long time.
3) Remember those 4-2 Vikings? Yeah, try 4-6 now Vikings. Sucks to lose your last 4 games eh?
4) Thanksgiving is right around the corner. . .oh the joy!!
5) 5 Muslim Imams were kicked off a Minneapolis flight after they claimed they were "just practicing their religion" other passengers didn't think so and they got the boot. CAIR was notified and now Muslims are going to boycott US Airways. Gimme a fricking break.
6) YOUTUBE.com still kicks ASS.

Hockey is going well. I put up 5 goals a couple of weeks ago, but have struggled to score since then. I'm playing two nights a week and soccer has been shelved for now. We'll see what next the next session of indoor brings. Maybe I'll play, maybe I'll stick with Hockey for right now.

I got "invited" to go play in the Great Plains Invitational indoor soccer tourney a few weeks ago by my X "best friend" Pat. I eventually turned them down. I had it in my head it would be a great time, but as the days wore on I finally figured that it wouldn't be as much as I thought it would be. These A-holes think I'm good enough to play with them in some tourney, trying to get our old team back together, but not good enough to play with them on a full time basis?? What the fuck? I think I thought it would be fun, but I just don't know these guys any more. I don't think I ever really knew them anyways, so why would I waste a bunch of money and time to go up there, only to find out things haven't changed and these guys are all the same guys??

I relented and didn't go - thank god. Sometimes its hard to move on, but at some point, you have to learn and move on. I've moved on and I'm glad I didn't go.

Well, its about that time again. Got time for a nice pic of the day??



Happiness is out there. . . believe me. . it is.


SEACREST OUT.