ONE MORE THOUGHT
So one topic that I haven't spent too much time on is ChemTrails. When I originally set up this blog, it was supposed to be more personal than anything else. I also started another blog specifically for the purpose of tracking the weather and the ongoing spraying activity in this area (Minneapolis, Minnesota).
My last entry in that blog was in October. Friday, October 10th to be exact. Since that entry, I have done a more intensive search and investigation into chem-trails. Some of the websites that people have put up are very well done. Others are very much in the conspiracy vein and are easy to look at the pictures and wonder what exactly gave people the impression that these were chem-trails.
Even though I do like conspiracies just as much as the next guy, I have to admit the only evidence I ended up with are some photos, some strange weather patterns and a TON of pure speculation.
I have no doubt something is going on - just exactly what though remains a mystery. Here are some of my doubts and questions I have. When I've posted these in chem-trail news groups looking for answers, all I seem to get is people telling me I'm an idiot and a turncoat. When in reality, I'm just looking for some answers that nobody else seems to have.
So here we go - things to consider. . .
1) My major problem with this is the lack of evidence. Name a conspiracy that doesn't have people coming forward to tell their story. The UFO and JFK conspiracies come to mind. In either case, tons of people have come forward to give information to fan the conspiracy flames. NOT ONE PERSON, NOT ONE RESEARCHER, NOT ONE PILOT HAS COME FORWARD TO TELL THE WORLD WHAT MISDEEDS THEY HAVE IMPOSED ON INNOCENT CITIZENS. WHERE ARE THE TESTIMONIALS OF THESE PEOPLE???
2) How are the aerosals being dispersed? Yes, we all know planes are the main culprit - but what is the delivery system? There are numerous websites that have pictures of umpteen commercial airplanes supposedly dropping large chemtrails. I've seen a ton of pictures of underbellies of planes. These planes are shown with no additional unusual equipment capable of dispersing the amounts of chemicals people seem to be reporting.
3) Who is involved? To date, I have not heard of any specific individuals that are involved in these operations. I know certain organizations such as HAARP may have connections to chemtrails. No invidual or individuals that I know of, have been named as lead conspirators. Most websites only refer to a vast government conspiracy.
So this is what I am left with. A bunch of unanswered questions and a feeling like this is going nowhere. Mind you, I've already spent close to three years following this and collecting what little data is out there. What I do know, is that something is going on. However, without further conclusive proof, I can only determine that yes spraying is happening, but I cannot come to the conclusion that a vast conspiracy exists.
Here are some of the best websites for chemtrail analysis and information:
Clifford Carnicom
Chem-Trail Central
Stop Chemtrails!
I commend all three sites for giving a ton of links, pictures, and a forums for discussion.
so remember. . . .
THE TRUTH IS UP THERE!!!!
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OHHHHHHHHHHHHH SHIT!!!
That's usually the reaction you have when you realize you just got stuck for saying something stupid. Say, like when people say that there were no WMD's in Iraq. Of course, the liberals and dems forgot that they too apparently got duped too. Because if they think the republicans mislead the country, then they should shoulder some of the blame as well, because they were standing atop the mountain shouting when Billy the Willy was still in office saying the same shit.
My friend sent me this and I got a big kick out of it. Take a long pause when you read John Kerry's quote.
Oh yeah - this just in from the DNC - Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh SHIT! So I guess there really wasn't any WMD in Iraq, were there? Too flippin funny.
Another celebration took place for me today. You know you have to be happy when my Israeli S.O.D.'s mount up. the article alone put a big grin on my face.
Oh well on to more important things. My RED DEVILS have a chance to claim some hardware when they take on Millwall for the FA Cup final. This could seriously dampen some of the pain of ending up third in FA this season.
so:
Alright. So my passion this summer is getting my bike
up and running. I just need a few more parts to make it happen, but I don't think I'll be riding it until late July or August. But I see it as an attainable goal. We'll see.
I have yet to play soccer this summer. An assistant manager quitting and another in college has left me working Monday's. Even worse? Hockey moved to Monday's. So if I really want to, I can double up and play both - in one day. How fucking crazy would that be? I'd like to do it just to prove to myself that I can.
Oh well, life is still great. Still hitting it hard looking for another job. I've had a few good options, but nothing worth pursuing. So onward and upwards, I suppose.
Still looking towards my son coming this summer. It's been too long.
So the question for the day is this:
If they legalize GAY marriage - then shoudl these be legal too? I mean if marraige is defined as a right. . .shouldn't these be allowed as well under the same law?
1) Men should be able to marry as many women as he is "entitled" too. I mean, if two one wife is good, how much better would two be?
2) Can I marry my dog too? I mean, Marriage is a right - isnt it?
3) What about marrying my cousin, under the law, that should be legal too - right?
PASSING LAWS TO MAKE A CERTAIN SEGMENT OF THE POPULATION HAPPY IS NOT THE WAY TO MAKE OUR COUNTRY BETTER!!!!
Oh yeah, I almost forgot. . .
"I feel ya BIG TICKET!!!"
Better get used to seeing this. . HERE COME THE DRUMS. . .
Go T-Wolves!!!!
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THE SUN RISES AGAIN
After my rage yesterday, I really had to contain myself from doing something stupid. I'm over it now - I had a few decent dreams last night, so all is well again.
I had an interesting conversation with the mother of my son. It was funny, I just stayed calm and get her all wound up. I get a big kick out of pushing her buttons. If nothing else, that put a smile on my face.
Right now, all I know is that it's snowing in North Dakota and raining here. I always like the rain. Depressingly mellow, the greys, the blues, I like it. Add in the right mix of oldies music (Frank, Dean, Count Bassie, Ella) and you got yourself a plot for a movie.
I have life so good right now, so to have a little grey peek in every once and a while is good. I get to sit at lunch and ponder the meanings of life, my place in this crazy world, etc, etc. The kind of questions you just let your mind wander around for a bit, until the infinite possibilities overwhelm you and your just glad to be alive.
Too funny. I'll be doing that shortly. I haven't written any poems for so long, maybe I'll bust some for ya tomorrow when its raining again.
Alright - so I teased a rant I had coming on. . . so here goes:
So what I've found in the past few years is something that has irked me for some time.
SO DO THESE LETTERS MEAN ANYTHING TO ANYBODY??
R T F M ??
So the largest segment of the population right now are the baby boomers. You know, the kind that had a hell of a time growing up and proved to be an amazing generation of people. the do everything by themselves, the 60's, the 70's, you know the bit.
This is my rant. This people have turned into complete and utter dependents. They dont want to read any manuals, they dont have that experimental attitude anymore. They want everything handed to them on a plate and served up nice and hot.
I tried, man, I fucking tried to push them to do it on their own, but they are just too damned stubborn! So here's the debate that I've started at work. What is the cause of this? Is it just old age laziness? Or are they taking a cue from the generation behind mine (Mine OF COURSE being the X generation) and just thinking they deserve to have everything their way and we should just show them how to do everything. The debate is very interesting to say the least.
So I'm listening to Sammy Davis Jr. sing "The Lady's A Tramp", what a classic. I love the Rat Pack. I love the 50's. Am I dreamer? Or do I just long for the way things used to be? Such an easier time in Americana.
So with all this crap going on lately, here's a few enduring pictures from the past that always puts a smile on my face. I hope it puts one on your's too.
enjoy. . . .
I miss you Frank. Say hello to Deano for me. Keep the band playin till I get there.
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FUCKING ANIMALS
well, well, well what does it take to get someone's attention? The liberal media ran with this prisoner abuse story and look what happened. An innocent American, kidnapped and murdered because of our "abuse" of Iraqi prisoners.
I have totally run out of emotion for this. I'm still going to vote for Bush no matter what. I just go insane listening to these democrat left wingers who are quick to point out our failures, but can't seem to give me a decent argument on what the solution is. You hear them all day calling in to shows saying Bush did this and that, but when pressed for their solution, don't have anything. Nice, go home and smoke some more weed and have a big tall glass of shut the fuck up juice!
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh - so from this day forward, no more Iraqi bullshit, arguments, thoughts, ideas, words. Nothing. It has taken too much out of me. If you can't see the truth, then too damn bad. Maybe someday you'll see the light. It just gets me too pissed to talk about anything else positive in my life.
So the weather is getting nicer, and I've been getting more job offers. I've been sitting on my ERIKS proposal for some time, just to see what else would come along in the meantime. It is'nt going to happen. Not enough money, even with bonuses and commissions. I came to the conclusion that its a cool part-time job, but that doesn't translate well to the future.
My son is coming up this summer and I'm excited to see him again. It's already been too long and I miss the little guy!
Oh yeah, so while I've been ranting and raving about Iraq, I've come to another startling conclusion about the baby boomer generation. . . .
but alas, it's time to go home.. .
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Dont worry - I fill ya in in tomorrow!!!
SOMETIMES ITS EASIER
Today was interesting. I got a call from sister and she railed on me for about an hour. This shit has been building for about 5 years. I didn't think she was one to hold a grudge, but I guess I was wrong. I always thought I was the one that held the long grudges - oh well.
Her points were that I missed her wedding pictures, missed her first daughter being born, and a laundry list of other shit that gets rather involved.
So are there any excuses for missing this stuff? Since my sister is my only sibling, I would have to answer no. There can be NOTHING that is more important than family. My mother chalked it up to, "That's just the kind of person he is." Which is true on some levels, it but it begs further questions.
I wont go into grave detail, but at that time in my life, things were not going well for me. It's a long story, but my priorities were totally fucked up. Now, I can sit back and look at it and see where I went wrong. Then, going to my sisters wedding came in second to working and making money. Did I really care at the time? Not really. It didn't bother me so much, simply because it wasnt that high on my priority list. Does it excuse me from blame? No way.
Which brings me to my next point. Am I really that kind of person? I think to a certain extent I am. Although I was born a Leo, I tend to be intorverted and not have many friends. The friends I do have are usually fleeting. This has been going on since high school. Since I have so many things that I'm interested in, I never really fit into one "clique". I played soccer and hockey. BUT I loved heavy metal music and rap. I loved skateboarding, BUT I played hockey and soccer. The groups of people that were my friends were in constant conflict. The jocks hated the metal heads, the skaters hated the jocks. I was stuck in the middle. Fortunately, I have but one friend that I've known since we grew up in the same neighborhood. That's about it.
I feel the real reason that I don't have many friends is that I can never find a friend that really fits the definition. Have I ever fucked over a friend? My record would not seem to indicate so. Have MY friends fucked me over? Several times. So this is what I struggle with. If you're my friend, why do you fuck me over? I conclude then they are not really my friends and I move on. This actually happened in college. I played soccer and met a great group of guys that I played with. A huge falling out with a my girlfriend (whose best friend just happened to be my roommates girlfriend) and all of a sudden, I have no friends. They all just disappeared. I thought that guys always stuck together. I was wrong.
Yeah, we still play soccer together and are still on the same team, but I dont consider them my friends anymore. You could say we have a "professional" relationship. So once again, I basically dumped all those losers and moved on.
So to me, I have but three or four people that I can really rely on and consider those people my friends. People come into my life and go out now like a swinging door. Friends dont mean that much to me. Am I too nice of a guy? I respect people until they fuck it up. Another great case was my friend Ed. I thought he was a cool guy and when I started working at ERIKS. We got along great and hung out quite a bit. He met my now X girlfriend, after we broke up (neither told me this until later) they started "hanging out" together and fooling around behind my back. So this is the guy I loaned money to freely, chased women with, worked and partied with. Yeah, what a fucknut. I was so pissed, and so I just stopped hanging out with him and just thought of him as a total asshole that took adavantage of our friendship.
I once told my mom I wanted to be a wonderer. I guess I'm livin up to that notion. I have three permenant friends and I don't really care. My priorities are but mine alone. If doesn't make me happy - then fuck it, it ain't worth it.
I've been so fucking un-selfish and caring to everyone around me and I just stopped caring about 6 years ago. That would have coincided with my sisters wedding. The swath I cut, just happened to include my family - which was a bad choice on my part. Now, I'm going to spend the rest of my dying days trying to make up for something I thought was ok. Penenace to me, that I'm willing to accept to make things right with my sister.
So here's my conclusion. We live in a world that is tragically self-centered. For 6 years, I couldnt give a fuck. It saved me from dealing with people and their baggage. It saved me from caring about people I thought were my friends. Unfortunately what it didn't do - was find me love. I didn't hate myself, I just didn't like anybody around me. I just didn't give a fuck about anything near me - really.
So here I sit, totally happy and content with my life. I have a gif that is madly in love with me, and I have a plan for the future,
So here is the final thought. Ala' my favorite band SAVATAGE
Never sleep alone on the subways
Never walk alone on the tracks
Never take a ride to the edge of your mind
Not unless you have a ticket back
Don't believe in T.V. preachers
Don't believe in talk show stars
Never follow trends if they turn on your friends
Just to be sure you know who your friends are
And if you're running blind
On a refueled mind
Better watch the time
And careful you don't go too far
Make sure you got a ticket back. . . .
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WHY?
Here is my daily rant about what's going on in IRAQ.
Another great question my friend posed to me is this: "Why the fuck are we trying to convince everybody (i.e. the european community, the arab world, etc, etc) to like us?"
That is a good question my man. I mean, let's apply this to your own life. Have you ever tried to get somebody to like you by not acting like yourself, only to find out you can only play that sharade so long??
So why are we, as Americans trying to impress everybody else in the world?? I don't get it. The Arab world is full of hypocrisy, yet when we stumble, everybody is suddenly pointing fingers. We are not perfect, nor do we hold ourselves out to be either. Yet everybody likes to take thier stabs at us.
Personally I don't care if people from other countries likes us. FUCK THEM. Guess what?? We have the greatest country on the face of the planet. If it wasn't, then why does everybody want to flee their countries to come here? Why do foreign leaders send their kids to US colleges?? We are the most liberal, religiously tolerant, openl culture in the world. NOBODY coddles other cultures like we do. We are the melting pot, period - end of discussion.
This ideology that we are the world's police force, here to save everybody from their disasters, invading neighbors and the like is hilarious to me. It's like we spend all this money to help these countries, then they turn around harbor the people that bombing us?? Hmmmmmm very illogical to me. . .
So here's a twist for you readers. . .
Being the environmentalist I am, I really believe that had we made a stronger effort to move on with alternative fuel sources, we wouldn't be tied up so much in this ordeal. It would have been easier to let all the middle eastern countries run amok themselves and just do away with each other. How much easier would that have been?? How good would it feel to just tell OPEC to go fuck themselves??
The convo would go something like this:
"Mr. President, we are going to raise your prices of oil up $10 per drum"
"Oh really Sheik?"
"Yes, you HAVE to pay us. . . "
"Ummmmm why don't youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu go fuck yourself?"
"What did you just say?"
"Did I studder? We don't need you, so kindly FUCK OFF. Oh yeah, what's 8" long and goes dead in your hands?"
*hangs up phone*
So I do to an extent believe that we really have nobody to blame but ourselves somewhat for being there. Our dependence on oil mandates that we have to keep that ugly part of the world in order for our supply chain to remain open. Can you imagine how happy Saddam would have been if he controlled the oil being sold to us?? Holy shit I don't even want to think about that!!!
More laters brah. .
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STARTING EARLY
Already I just read an article on my favorite news website about how the legacy of Pat Tillman will be remembered.
At least the university had the balls to say that the students remarks were without merit and quite immature. Get a clue. I hope this guy runs into some ROTC guys at a party and they just FLATTEN his ass. Now that would be funny.
To me, I see people seething out of jealousy because of what this man has done for his country. I just wonder how these same people would feel if he stayed in the NFL took the money and didn't listen to his heart. Would he be another money hungary jock?? Maybe I was brought up differently. Maybe it's becaue I have a cousin who is the Marines. Whatever it is, I can't seem to wrap my head around this argument or even this point of view.
The funny thing? I was raised in a liberal household. I voted for Bill Clinton. But those days are long gone. My point of view starting changing when I saw Bush stand up for this nation. Terrorists have been bombing us and killing our people since the 1980's. We as a nation couldn't care less. Until 9/11. It was as if the whole country FINALLY woke up. Although some of you are still fast asleep. Bush stood up and basically proclaimed that enough was enough. We're coming after you and we WILL eliminate you. He took a stand, and thank god he did.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh enouogh trying to argue with people who can't see past thier own noses.
Funny, thought I lost that last post, but it seems to have been posted anyways????
Dont ask me why.
Here's what I've been listening to lately - just in case your wondering. .
Fear Factory - Obsolete
best lyric from this song?
"Man is obsolete, ERASE, EXTINCT"
Super Dope Trance Addict Mix vol. 5
mix of vocal and high energy trance
Killswitch Engage - Alive or Just Breathing?
this album kicks ass. they have a song about 9/ll
read it, understand it. THINK about it.
Life To Lifeless
humanity cover me with the ashes of remembrance
i will learn from this pain
there is no darkness without light to teach us of ourselves
life to lifeless to eternity, life to lifeless the cycle repeats
death unfolds itself painfully to unmask how fragile we are
death unfolds itself painfully, teacher of sanity
the pain drags me down
i'll rebuild me
thats all I got for today. . . .
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YOU JUST CANT WIN
So I had a lenghty post about the situations in Iraq and all the anti-war stuff coming out. But alas, my co-worker slipped into my office and closed the window and lost all my stuff. ARRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGHHHHHHH
So THEN I just had a quick bullitted list of points I had made in the previous post that was erased. After being interrupted several times, and having several apps up and running - I was greeted with the ever so popular "blue screen of death".
Okay - so now its third down and I will be sure not to make that mistake again.
So let's get to it!!!!
I think Dennis Prager had the the best point of the day regarding the war in Iraq. His point was that Bush, like Reagan before him was shaking things up in the world in order to make it better. Bush wasn't about to wait for these carzies to attack again, and simply pre-empted another attack by going on the offense. I think that people WANT to take the easy way, Hopefully these people will leave us alone. PEACE does not work for these people. The best example is the Isreal vs. Palestine. Isreal continues to produce intellectuals, new innovations in just about every scientific field. Palestine continues to develop new ways to kill Jews. Hmmmmmmmmmm seems pretty obvious to me. One is bent on making their cultural better. One culture is bent on destroying the other. Nothing else, nothing more. If you disagree, then answer this questions. When the Palestinians were under Arab rule PRIOR to Isreal, why didn't they want thier own state then??????
It's funny to think that all these anti-war people think that war is not the answer. Oh really? So what is? Negotiating with terrorists? Maybe go to the UN? You mean THIS UN?? You mean the same UN that took the US off of its humanitarian committee and replaced us with Arab countries that practice genocide and believe that women are below them??
Oh yeah, so much for trying to humiliate Iraqi servicemen during interogations. One prisoner thought that the worst thing was that they were made to stand like women - the worst insult the Americans could give an Iraqi. It's humerous to think that people actually see that shit and think we are in the wrong?? Suddenly the Arab world that shows buses blowing people up and suicide bombers DAILY has a problem with this??
That is my issue witht he Arab world. 'They seem to think their shit don't stink. Guess what guys. . . it does.
Of all the stupid ass liberal garbage I've read out there, I've found they like to point fingers, but are short on what to do in order to tide the waves of terror and to stabilize the Arab world.
So to all you stupid, anti-war, anti-US, pot smoking, birkenstock wearing, tied died FUCK HEADS. Here is a message for you:
WAKE UP!!!!!
THIS NOT THE 70'S, THIS NOT VIETNAM. THIS IS REALITY. THERE ARE PEOPLE OUT THERE WHO ARE ENGAGED IN A WAR AGAINST US AND YOU!!!! THEY DON'T LIKE US BECAUSE THEY ENVY US. THEY WANT OUR FREEDOM, THEY WANT YOUR DREAMS. THEY WANT YOU TO REVERT BACK TO THE MIDDLE AGES. IF YOU'RE A WOMAN, YOU HAVE NO RIGHTS UNDER THEIR LAWS. IF THIS IS WHAT YOU WANT, AND DON'T BELIEVE IN WHAT WE ARE DOING, GO LIVE IN SYRIA FOR A YEAR AND FIND OUT FOR YOURSELF. CHILDREN ARE RAISED TO KILL YOU. THEY ARE KILLING US, AND ALL YOU CARE ABOUT IS CALLING OUR PRESIDENT AN IDIOT?????? WAKE UP!!!!!!!! THIS IS WAR, THERE ARE NO RULES IN THEIR BOOKS. THESE ARABS FIGHT LIKE COWARDS. THERE IS NO NEGOTIATING WITH THESE PEOPLE - YOU NEED TO WAKE UP NOW!!!!
I'm exasperated. . . . I have nothing else. I wish I could spend more time on my life, but these people are maddening.
So other than my absolute rage for people that just cannot see past thier simple little world - life is pretty good,
Still looking for a job, soccer started today. Since we are short a manager, I will miss the first few games. That sucks. Hockey is still going well. I scored 4 goals last week. I thought the job ERIKS was going to ffer me was going to be better. I have yet to hear fom the VP about my proposal.
Oh well.. . . .
Pat Tillman was laid to rest today. So I thank EVERY serviceman and women that are putting thier lives on the line to secure my freedom.
This is for them:
Those Now Gone
by Roger W Hancock
Fallen Servicemen,
for country fought;
liberty, freedom,
the primary reason.
They gave themselves,
that we be free
Fathers, mothers,
sisters, and brothers;
our dearly departed,
life for country given.
Families broken,
for liberty.
Veterans who served,
and lived to tell;
the horrors, and risks,
now sleep in peace.
Served their country,
for our security.
Unknown Soldier, MIA,
remembrance our way,
to honor you as well,
victims of a warriors hell.
Served, now lost that,
our lives be free.
Sleep now Sleep tight
rest now, duty done,
price paid in life or death.
The vigilance now be ours.
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